Having a bad day

Hi Maisiemae,

I was fine yesterday. Today not so great. I've been in bed half the day. I start each day ready to meet the day, have breakfast, get washed & brush my teeth, then go in the bedroom to get dressed. I then make the mistake of sitting on the bed to make a fuss of my kitties who like to spend the day in there. The next thing I know I'm waking up under the covers 4 or 5 hours later. 

I'm seeing my GP tomorrow for my medication check, so I'm going to ask if there's something I can do to break the cycle. I already take meds for clinical  depression so it's it's not really appropriate to take even more medication to help with this, which I'm sure is acute depression from losing Alan and my Mum.

Thursday afternoon  I start my counselling with Cruse. I guess I'll have to hope that will help. I know I sound pitiful, & I DO want to go forward, it's just so hard, as you, all my lovely friends, know only too well. 

Hugs Sue xx

Hi all,

Hope things are okay with you and you and yours are safe

Sue I'm feeling a tad like you I think, in this sad world we live in.maybe because I've had a family weekend with happy brothers and their wives , as couples, nieces  etc and me being the odd one but , I don't begrudge them their happiness at all but I have been crying most of the evening, All I want is a hug from Bob, to feel his arms warm around me, and I can't have it.

Certain the counselling can help sue, I'm sure it will, let me know. On the surface I am fine,but deep down I'm not. Maybe when mil care is sorted I can deal with me 

Night night all xxx

Sue, you don't sound pitiful. How you're feeling is completely understandable. Hopefully the counselling will help. You've been through a lot and it takes time.

Hug to you.

X

Bobles, my dad died when I was very young and I remember my mum saying how hard it was going to family things and parties without him. She always felt out of it. Unfortunately, I don't think that feeling ever entirely went away but it did get easier. I can't imagine what it's like for you, as losing a parent is different from losing a partner, but I wish I could come and give you hug. I'll have to make do with sending you a virtual one.

X

You are so not pitiful Sue so stop thinking that. We're just in a dreadful time and I so empathise with you.

Love Lesley xx

Bobles, how hard for you, i imagine the arriving and leaving such events are tricky too. You are still going and i applaud you. I hope peopke take u under their wing each time so you dont feel alone or does everyone think you are just fine as you went along. Daily challenges for us all. Hard indeed and again I applaud you on not avoiding. Xxxx youve a lot of warm arms around you from this 'gang' x

Sue, what a battle but you are wonderwoman and i trust that with the right medical support and gentle guiding fall net of counselling you will move wherever you want to be. You may have lost Alan some months ago but/and you have been through exhausting paperwork 'hoarder' nightmare which has really only v recently ended, you are grieving beautiful lady, your body and mind are still computing, alan, mum, and now is Sue's time... Gentle little steps of small enjoyments, little goals. We are here xxxx

Hello all.

Still reading posts. Dad taking a lot of our time and worry at the moment. 

Meant to fly to Spain Sunday. 

Just wanted to say not ignoring!

Hug to all.

Jenny

Ps Maisemae I think you should write...maybe a blog?

Feeling a bit shitty today.  It was all a bit much last night for me.  Maybe I shouldn't have gone to the funeral.  Felt terrible this morning and may have had some sort of mini panic attack.  Stomach churning, felt sick, extremely lightheaded.  Not sure if that's a panic attack but it was horrible.  It only lasted for a couple of minutes - if that - and feel ok now but don't want that again.

Jenny I hope you do go to Spain.  I think you need the break.

I'm looking forward to going to my sisters at the weekend and meeting Sue.  I hope you're OK Sue and feel able to come and meet me.  Don't worry if you don't.  I will understand. 

Hugs to all.

X

Maisiemae, I think you should write our story.