Sorry but I'm having a bad day and I just need to let it out. Â I woke up feeling like I've had no sleep and really down. Â Mum's been bad this week - a lot of pain and, I think, sliding into depression - so I'm in overdrive on worrying about her. Â My sister is with her today so I don't need to go round to see mum although I probably will drop round later. Â I thought I would throw myself into cleaning the house so make myself busy and then I'd start to feel better. Â My fatal mistake was asking my 18 year old daughter to help. Â She had a major strop. Â I tried to keep calm as I realise that she is worrying about my mum too but it was hard. Â I tried to talk to her but she just got worse and worse so I gave up. Â Then my husband made sarcastic comments about it all - again he is worrying and his mum is also not well - so I am still trying to keep a lid on it. Â But I feel even worse now. Â I'm now sitting on the sofa in my pyjama's watching old episodes of Grey's Anatomy without the will to do anything else. Â I just keep crying and feel so very very sad.Â
Hello Yantibee and sons of Jill and Yantibee.
A special day for you all.thinking of you loads.
Love to you all xxx
Take a deep breath ... then on with the day.
Dearest Yantibee, I want to wish you good wishes today, one of your firsts. I hope you and your sons are able to be together.Â
Much Love
Sue xx
Thank you sue, saw the boys and my mum this morning and am working for rest of day.Â
Difficult and emotional today ..... really miss my lady x
Yantibee, been thinking of you today.
X
Elenium
Went to see mother in law last night. She is not at all well. Not cancer related, thank goodness, but still not good. I'd really like to have a bit of time where I don't have anything to worry about. Is it too much to ask???
How is everyone today? Hopefully, enjoying the bank holiday.
Hugs to all.
X
Elenium
Ditto Elenium.
We are awaiting blood test results, not good though.
So, though feeling sad today, instead of festering away  this afternoon, having had a lovely afternoon yesterday with my son and grandson, I fancied a scone, so I thought get out there and make some.
Flour dated 03/17- no weevils in sight, okay add a little more baking powder, baking powder dated 09/16, okay add a little more. Thought maybe baking powder , best before 10/15!!!!! perhaps not.
Sultanas okay dated 06/17 but a tad crystallised, okay so soaked them in a drop of juice.
Eggs dated 5/5/17
Might be using them as a door stopper, if I survive the first bite!
Love to all.xxx
Take a deep breath ... then on with the day.
..... and no, Elenium, you aren't asking too much. I feel like saying just give us all a break.
Biscuits look okay, haven't tried one yet. Did I mention I forgot to add sugar ?
Off to sort MIL out for her evening routine , no peace for the wicked I guess.
xxxx
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Thank you Bobles. That did make me smile. I was going to make chocolate orange cookies this afternoon but couldn't get myself motivated. I did go to mum's and get her bird bath though. It looks nice in my garden.Â
Hope your scone biscuits taste ok.
Off to cook dinner now.
X
Elenium
Hi Elenium,
I have survived, not bad when warm with butter and jam. Slimline not.
Am a walking advert to food waste and their sell by dates. Have frozen some. Will report back in October when I find them again.
Your cookies sound delicious, maybe next week. I know it's hard to get motivated, my garden is a jungle.
Bet the bird bath looks great, my mum only used a clay saucer and watching the sparrows have a bath always made her chuckle. Also, when I was cutting her grass I always seemed to have moved  its position but she always knew where to put it back exactly in the same place.
Big hug xxx
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I need to catch up with posts. Weekend partially gardening and part other things. One dog disappeared, we found her many fields away, wanted to call mum, then trimming a bush shrub thing found robins nest with 3 v young chicks mouthing (or beaking?) and an unhatched little blue egg. Quickly left alone. Wanted to phome mum and tell her. Partner calls his mother 3 times a day, every time he does this now drives me nuts. Cant help it. My mum was so much kinder and lovelier. Its true. Want to call mum to tell her driving carefully back to London, will see her next weekend. I cant.
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