Having a bad day

Dads up again. 

He hardly sleeps.   Today he cried a long time..he played music from their best holiday together.he seemed better after he cried. Still no sleep though.

Am back in bed. Hope for sleep. 

Jx

Hello Yantibee,

You are such a lovely man, still offering support, despite still grieving. Also offering support to those who have still to go through it. That takes a very strong sort of person. Whoops,forget what I was going to say.

Take care, Anneteresa

Ah.. thanks Maisiemae. I just wish that you be kind to yourself, cos you deserve it!

Take care, Anneteresa

I'm struggling a bit. Have just been emailed the order of service proof. I'm not crying and don't feel like I'm going to but can't seem to focus on anything now. I just want to sit and stare into space thinking of nothing. I didn't sleep well last night so very tired too. 

Got estate agents coming tomorrow to value mum's house. Not sure how I'll cope with that...

Hope everyone is ok...

X

Elenium it's a strange place isn't it?

I want to sit quietly but there are demands ..just proofed order of service.

Hug.

Jx

Hi 

To quote Elenium from October "I am having a bad day" . At work feeling really low, can't get Jill out of my thoughts for a moment to concentrate on anything at all. Got Poppy's ashes back yesterday too. Terrible nightmares during the night and feel so tired and weak today like I just want to curl up on sofa on my own . Not felt this bad for ages .....sorry just had to tell someone x

Please don't apologise yantibee. I think we're all going through the sitting/laying & staring into space thing. I seem to spend a fair bit of time doing that lately.

When I was out on Tuesday I went up to Alan's flat. The flat itself is almost cleared now. Don't know about the outbuildings as I don't have a key for the gate. The landlady's popping up there tomorrow to see what will need doing cleaning wise. I said I wasn't up to the task. 

I'm going down to Essex Sunday evening & coming back Tuesday afternoon. My friend & I are going to the cinema Tuesday evening. It's the Royal Ballet doing Sleeping Beauty. She's had lots of stress lately, & as she said, we can lose ourselves in the magic of it all.

I'll make sure I pack something red and something Italian so I can honour your lovely Mums. 

I've been feeling more & more antisocial. And I don't like it. My tinnitus is driving me nuts!! It's worse when I'm upset or stressed. 

I just want my Alan back.

Hugs to All

Sue xx

Oh we all miss them and it's so awful to go through to witness and probably to read about.

Yantibee Dad has said he feels weak too and a couple of nights ago said he didn't feel human..he doesn't sleep much.

Sue I think a spot of magical ballet will be good to escape.

Wish I could help more but have nothing more than empathy and a hug.

Jx

Jenny,

Empathy & a Hug is a wonderful gift. Thank you

Sue xx

Hello Yantibee, I know what you mean I think.

Everyone says time is a healer but at the moment I feel worse. I knew I would be sad, unhappy, lonely all those things, yes there are glimmers of normality but I don't think anyone can imagine how the depth of the down will be in reality until it happens to you. Sorry about Poppy too which adds to your grief.

Been for my nightly stroll and Bobs star seems brighter tonight, silly me I know, but that's what I feel. 

Wishing us all a good nights sleep and a better day tomorrow.

Cross every hurdle as we get to it is the aim.

Love to all xxxx