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Hello, 

I'm Keeks, I'm 26 and lost my dad to cancer two months ago today. I'm not sure what status I would give myself as I'm neither Christian nor Atheist, but I have always strongly believed in an afterlife. I'm really struggling right now as I have had no connection with my dad since he passed. I feel so incredibly alone and lost and am now questioning everything that actually happens after death. I'm extremely irratable right now and feel like evrything p**ses me off. I'm frustrated at small things and get very paranoid about seemingly small issuess - a work colleague potentially seeing my partner's card details for one example. 

I don't want to die, but honestly, I feel like I just want to be with my dad right now. 

Is this normal?
Any oppinions are kindly welcomed x