By way of background, I had a breakdown around 2 years ago following a mentally abusive marriage, and was diagnosed with PTSD. I've done so much work on myself and really got my life back on track, I was actually loving life and looking forward to what was next for me.
I was diagnosed with Grade 1 Endo Cancer 4 weeks ago, the MRI is suggesting Stage 1A and I'm now waiting a full hysterectomy - I've had to be referred to a specialist hospital due to significant endometriosis and one of my tubes has fluid in it, which is causing me to worry.
I'm single following my divorce last year, I have an adult daughter (22) at home who is a good support but I don't want to put too much on her as she struggled through our divorce, her dad has disappeared and blocked her and she unfortunately witnessed me at some very low points.
My CNS and the team, together with my GP and GP nurse have all been incredibly positive from the start but this hasn't helped me at all, I am constantly looking for reassurance and I am convinced that this is the end for me, I am only 46. I've been prescribed various medication, anti-depressants, propranolol and lorazepam, but I feel increasingly overwhelmed and depressed. I have spent today calling various mental health helplines, and I have been signposted to various services but there's so many waiting lists.
My close friends and daughter have told me that they're not worried about the cancer, they're worried about my mental health. I have PTSD from the marriage breakdown and I feel that this new trauma is an extension of what I've been through.
I just wanted to reach out on here - does anyone else struggle to the extent where they feel that they are completely overwhelmed and cannot cope?
