I started unwanted journey with Melanoma back in 2019, and thought I had lost it on the way, but it has caught up with me with a vengeance, It is back several in my brain and liver. I am still waiting for all the departmental meetings and the final biopsy result from a lump under my armpit taken on Friday. But I think I know what the answer is going to be.
Sitting here thinking about everything and not really coping. I don't think it has sunk in to my husband and I am finding it hard to talk to him about it all, that any treatment might/will not work and thinking if I really want the treatment if it is only going to be short term, and not try to prolong things for us both. Both of us hold our feelings in ( I know not good) I know we are going to have to talk, but how, I so want to keep him thinking there will be more time. we have no children and family not close by
I started today to clear things out like paperwork, clothes etc. looking at funerals, wills, the list goes on. Even showing him today how to work the new air fryer pressure cooker I bought a few weeks ago 
Any advice gratefully received
Hi Tasdev00
It is such a tricky business dealing with the ones we love, I wonder if it might help you to talk things through with one of the staff on our helpline, somehow talking to a total stranger where we can sometimes feel we can show our deepest thoughts can help us work out our own feelings. Someone commented recently it is a bit like being in a plane incident - put you own mask on first before trying to help someone else.
<<hugs>>
Steve
