At my whits end.

Hello Trikeman 

I am not able to say that I understand, or that I have experienced anything like what you are going through at the moment, but I did not want your post to go unanswered. 

I can only imagine how emotionally drained and devastated you are, and I am so sorry that you are going through this again. 

I do hope that you find your inner strength again, you have been a superstar and beat this battle many times already and I hope that you will do so again, the treatment improves every year, (as I am sure you already know) but hang on to the loving support of your family and gather your strengh from them.

I wish you every success and hope you are supported by your cancer team to the highest level'

Remember if you ever need to please call the number in my signature and speak to the lovely Macmillan Team, they are here for you all the way. 

Lowe'

Hi Trikeman,I’m really sorry to hear of your ongoing cancer woes,It Is very unfair.You would be made very welcome over in the bladder cancer group if you felt able to join us.It Is a friendly group and we could offer emotional support at least.Best wishes Jane 

Hi 

sorry to hear this 

I do understand 

in 2001 age 13 I had a brain tumour which was treated but the treatment caused me to be paralysed 

I taught myself everything from breathing to walking again when doctors said I’d never breathe or walk again on my own - missed 2 years of school, didn’t get held back and still went to uni

now in 20 years later I get another brain tumour this time it can’t be operated on so just had radiotherapy and chemotherapy this time 

the tumour and treatment has affected my mobility again so now I can barely walk a few steps 
and my arms have lost most of the range they had - which was limited anyway from the first time 

I do have days when I feel like I just get crap piled on and on and why me etc

so you are not alone 

I get good days as well where I focus on despite all this disease has tried to do, I have still come out the other side and so have you

people on here are a great support to and know how you feel 

Thank you for your kind words and thoughts. I'm sorry you have suffered so badly with this terrible disease, your positivity has certainly helped me put things in perspective. I had surgery today and had mixed results. The tumor was removed successfully but has invaded the muscle meaning follow up surgery after Xmas. I'm now thinking much more optimistically about beating this cancer again and I'm looking forward to the future. I must admit to a moment of weakness and maybe self pity but with the support and kindness of everyone on the Macmillan site I think I've got things sorted in my head. Once again a huge thank you to you and everyone else who has offered kind words of support. I wish you every success in your continued fight against cancer and send you my very best wishes for the future. 

Hi Jane, my apologies for the late reply, thank you for your kind words and thoughts. I am feeling much more positive now and after surgery today I am optimistic about the future and beating this cancer again. I will indeed pop over to the bladder cancer group and share my experiences. Once again thank you kind regards Gary.

That would be good,it is a supportive group.