Become very emotional as don’t recognise myself.

I know how you feel honey, I keep trying to be like myself from before my diagnosis and I find that no matter how much I try I will never be the same person. Emotionally I am all over the place . I feel quite alone even though my partner has been a most supportive and loving man . I have resisted coming on to any of these forums because I hoped I was strong enough but I have realised that you have to be strong to go through what we have been through and strong to reach out and say that you are struggling. Babs you are strong and brave and if like me haven't reached the first anniversary of diagnosis then its still early in recovery. We have goog days and bad days and you have to take it one day at a time and one day you will realise that it's been a good day. X

Thanks Star Girl,,, same as yourself I have fantastic support from my husband, but I feel if I discussed everything with him, then I will bog him down and feel it’s not fair to him.   I just feel like I had the ‘perfect’ life before cancer diagnoses, then it was taken away.  Had to give up my job as was working with children with special needs,  chemotherapy was rough as was very I’ll all way through treatment, three weeks later was lumpectomy and 4 lymph nodes removed ( all came back clear), three weeks later radiotherapy for ten days ( present), knowing my ovaries are going to be stopped ( hormone therapy) injections and tablets for 5+ years.   I know it’s for the better, but hard to get head a4ound my body isn’t as such the same as it was.  Life has changed so much and like you said it’s one day at a time,, where normally I was on auto pilot as I’m a full time career to disabled son.

Hi Babs, chemo was horrible for me to , I thought I could work through it but ended up needing 8 months off work. I had mastectomy on my right boob on 6th Dec 21. Even with support its a lonely place recovering from Cancer.

On the outside everyone comments about how well I look and how my hair is growing back, my mask is up but inside I am a mess . Menopause is now back which just adds to the feelings of aloneness. 

I get what you said about not sharing everything with your husband its hard I do the same. I say I am ok but really I am not. I hope being on here may bring a little relief . Listening and supporting and also sharing my struggles will help me and others get through this life changing time. X

Thankyou,, I’m starting the menopause because of my hormones stopping.