I don't know where to start with this as im not one for sharing about my feelings. My wife as has had cancer for 7 years and yes its been very hard, on us both. Shes currently starting chemo again tomorrow 1bag evey 3 weeks, this is alot less then usual as the disease is small. Having 3 rounds be done September.
But the thing is and im going to sound very selfish, i want to go on holiday for 2 weeks to visit my friend who ive not seen for 2 years. I want to get away from it all. Yes she reacts well to chemo and shell be down the pub 2 days after and thats great. But she's very demanding and controlling of me, wants me with her 24/7 and its too much to take i want time away from her but she just puts me down and starts fights at the thought of me booking a flight. I don't know what to do. I want to go but i want to stay and support her. Shell feel abandoned if i go but i feel like im a prisoner to her cancer, i cant do nothing i want coz ive gotta be there for her all the time while my life is passing me by not living it for myself.. ive just had enough!! I want some me time to have fun and see my friend. Its so hard.
Can anyone help. Thanks in advance
