Hi everyone
In July 2021 was told I had cervical cancer and cried abit but was too busy thinking of what was next and my family. In August I had a racial hysterectomy and then 5 days after coming out after op I was back in with a bad infection inside and staples.
I have tried to keep my mood good and positive, making sure my recovery was good but not faced that I had cancer. Kept saying I don’t believe I had cancer even though my sides are gone (all women bits and lymph nodes in groin) and I see scar every day.
my moods have been swinging so badly lately, one min laughing, then I’m wanting to hurt everyone who dares speaks to me, to crying, to depressed. I haven’t been sleeping well either.
my daughter went to uni just after I had the operation and because of COVID and self isolation I didn’t get to see her for a month and then she went uni. I felt like a crap mum as I couldn’t help her move, get her things she needed or be there for her when she really needed me. She suffers from depression and anxiety and I know she understood I still feel like she and me are not as close as we could be.
my boy also was being blackmailed while I was going through it all too and I’ve just found out it’s more money than I thought and I’ve had to sort it out with police etc. I feel like I don’t have time for me and no one I can talk to most nights when I’m alone.
live asked gp for pills but has told me to look up talk therapy but I know this has a waiting list of about 6 months locally to me and so won’t help me short term.
im still not at work due to pain in my back ,legs and whole body feeling like an old women (I’m 48), I miss my job as a carer and looking after others which use to make my day but I can’t even do things for myself so this is making mood worse.
thank you for reading
, it has helped to release it.
kelly
Hi Kelly Peace73 I am so sorry to read about the struggles you and your family have been dealing with over the past year.
A cancer diagnosis touches every area of life. in my granddaughters words "it's all pants granddad" and even although she is only 9 she is spot on. It's important to remember that you were unwillingly thrown into your cancer journey so don't feel that you are in any we responsible for the challenges of the last year..... we could just blame covid for making it that more harder.
It's great that you have put up this post as this opens you up to support and the knowledge that you are not alone on this journey.
You may find it worth looking through our Life after cancer. It's a group where these post treatment challenges are often talked about and may widen your support platform.
Talking to people face to face when on a cancer journey can be very helpful but during these strange times it’s not that available but do check to see if any Local Macmillan Support in your area has opened up. Do also check out for a local Maggie's Centre in your area as these folks are amazing.
We also have our Telephone Buddy Service where you can be matched with someone who understands what you're going through, and they'll give you a weekly call.
Also remember the Macmillan Support Line is open 8am-8pm (timings may differ across services) 7 days a week on 0808 808 00 00 or via Webchat and Email too. This service provides emotional support or just a listening ear.
Always around to chat ((hugs))
