My husband has blood cancer x2. He has ET that has progressed to mylofibrosis. He has had many surgeries for other things not related and the cancer for 26 years. I feel like it's really taking a toll now as he becomes more unwell. I have sever anxiety issues and just feel alone. Life is a round of hospital visits and surgeries for him. Sometimes I just want to run away and hide from it all.
Dont apologise I know we have all felt the same way. My husband has just completed 9 cycles of folfox and pani. The oncologist has just given him a month off before transferring him to capi, which is in pill form. The folfox and pani has really taken its toll. Hopefully the month off will help.
I reached out to my GP who has been a real help. Have you any interests outside the home? My dogs have been a saving grace.
Be kind to yourself. I know about feeling alone. It us hard.
Don't be too hard on yourself, you're only human and it's incredibly difficult. X
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