My husbands starts his Radiotherapy Monday,after 2 sessions of Chemotherapy.
Up until today I have been great, but suddenly everything feels overwhelming.. but i feel guilty because my husband is so calm.and all I want to do is cry, it is him who has the cancer, not me. Does anyone else feel like this?
Thank you so much for your reply Jenny . It feels better i am not on my own. I am so sorry to hear your husband's cancer has returned 
I do feel feel very weepy and I get annoyed with hubby as he says just focus on him getting better, counting down the 35 radiotherapysessions. he can handle it a lot easier than I can.
We know it us going to be tough as he has had a feeding PEG fitted ahead of the radiotherapy treatment starting, but I can honestly say I am so frightened about what is to come. His Consultant really laid it open about what we can expect, pointing out that he will suffer from most of the side effects due to the high dose he has to receive but to focus on the fact it is curable.
Stay strong Jenny, you have got through this once, I am sure you can do it again,
Jackie x
Treatment is scary thing and watching your loved one going through it is hard, but you can only treat each day as it comes and if it's a good day that's a bonus but there will be bad days and we just have to get on with it, I try not to show my husband how it effects me because I need to be strong for him and if I feel I'm having an off day I take my dog for a walk or talk to friends at work or family, unfortunately my husband's cancer is treatable but not curable and he's having immunotherapy, he as a scan in a few weeks to see if it's helping and fingers crossed it will be but if not treatment will stop and we are out of options,
There is always someone on here to talk to do if you feel like having a rant then rant away 
