On the brink of a breakdown

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I’m caring for my mum who has advanced breast cancer. She normally lives abroad and is only here for treatment, 6 months now and many more to go. I have no other family here as they’re all back home. I’m also married and have 3 young kids with different needs. I have had to go part time at work because it was all too much for me and I wasn’t coping. The caring demands are relentless, I’m so exhated and feeling extremely low, everyday. My ‘friends’ have slowly disappeared as I never have time to go out or cancel plans. I’m stuck in a routine that leaving me mentally and physically rundown b I have no escape. There’s no one to look after mum. My siblings visa applications have all been rejected so no one is able to come and help me out. I’ve never been in such a lonely, isolated, depressing place in my life and I just don’t know if I can do this anymore. Anyone willing to make a new friend, if even just to talk? No one around me, not even my husband, seems to understand what I’m going through.

  • Hi there. I feel your pain. I lost my husband on the 30th March and cared for him for the 67 days of knowing he had cancer. We got married on the 16th march so all very raw. I’ve never felt so alone. I don’t have family here and neither did he. They are all hours away. He was just 59 and my whole world. Not many people can do what we do and as hard as it is and believe me it’s bloody hard work but would you change it. The most important thing is your mum knows you are there at her darkest time and I bet she is so proud of you. Stay strong sweet. 
    we haven’t had time to breathe since the diagnosis on the 22nd January and it showed itself in the worst possible way. 67 days later I lost him. He was so brave right until the end, being home with him the whole time up and down will stay with me forever. I am honoured to have been with him until the end. 
    we find an inner strength we didn’t even  know we had and we do it out of love. 
    I hope you find your strength lovely.

    Lucy