Anyone caring and parenting?

So if you ever want to let off steam happy to chat 

Hey I hear you….my husband is 12 months into follicular lymphoma and it’s been a rollercoaster ride and right now we are waiting for more test results as he’s not fine. I have 2 kids 13 and 8 and I’m running 2 businesses and a charity. Our life was completely different before the diagnosis, it has completely 180’s our world. My husband already struggled with depression and anxiety before the diagnosis which would rear its head every few months but fitness and competing helped balance him. Since the diagnosis he is unable to do any of the physical things that were the soul of who he is. His moods are erratic but this last month he’s not been feeling great hence the tests, his treatment was postponed and his mood has been in the gutter with me getting the brunt of it. I totally understand why he feels like he does and it’s all completely justified but he refuses to see anyone to talk through his feelings or even call and online chat. So instead it festers and grows and impacts our every day life. I’m really struggling to hold everything together, keep a roof over our heads, support the family, the income, the kids and him. I’m treading on eggshells and yet again this morning he has stormed out the house. I’m so so tired. I’m trying to be as supportive as I can but my cup is dry……I just don’t know what else I can do and I’m desperately trying to protect my kids from this but they can see it. My son is already in play therapy as he has struggled with the diagnosis and fears of losing his daddy…..sorry I just needed a place to offload this and to also say that I get it x