Brief history ..10 years ago he had hep c and had a hard year of treatment with Ribovarin and Interferon. It was hard and he was quite ill but we were strong together. Since then we have gone every 6mths with scans and checkups
May 2024 a yearly endoscopy showed varices in oesophagus.
A biopsy followed 2 July he diagnosed liver cancer . Although 70 they thought he should be assessed for transplant final day of assesment we met surgeon who looked at scan ..we knew there was a problem the cirrohsis was worse and the tumour wasn't just contained in liver it had gone into portal vein.
We were referred to oncology and they had hoped to do immunotherapy but toxins were too high... he had HE which causes confusion
October we were home here when he started vomiting coffee ground/blood and emergency hospital 7 days.
We went through all this together and were good.
However hospital can do no more and he is on Pallative care at home .
The HE is being controlled and he is on various drugs to ease discomfort but he is a different person..gone is the thirty plus years of togetherness and sharing of all life brings.
I will care for him every moment l have .l have watched the weight loss till the smallest jeans hang and his swollen tummy
I so want to hug him but he wants to push me away. There is little conversation . He lives in his books and TV he cannot cope with conversations l feel so alone and just want to break through the wall growing between us.
I am sorry writing this just want to know how to help.and what others do ...
Thankyou just had to write the nights are the worst and scared of future so little time ...
Thankyou 
