Feeling scared

i guess by now it is scans day - sending you hugs as it is so so scary and so flipping hard - for all of you! My husband also has terminal cancer and i can't come to terms with it. Thinking of you today and hope you get the results quickly and that they are as positive as they can be. x

It's so easy to get caught up in the " ive got this "mode I  do exactly this too some days I think I can do this and its always on days he looks good then i crumble on days he looks tired of it all and im frightened  hes not going to make through ,the day this is all so hard isn't it and I don't have young children to deal with bless you xxx

Hi thanks for your thoughts and hugs back at you. The coming to terms bit is horrible. A truth no one wants to hear or definitively not process. Day at a time maybe even half a day. Sometimes I just have to do that. Scans done, now the waiting game. He’s feeling sick again today, so that’s making me panic a bit xxx

It’s just like you say. You think your coping then is rips your seat from you. Leaving you in a heap on the floor. I get so scared of the emotions this makes me feel. It literally hurts doesn’t it. Xxx