A Whirlwind two months

Hi everyone, I'm new to this forum and just needed a space to share my experiences of the last two months

My mother in law had been fighting breast cancer for 5 years. When I met her, she was in remission. And unfortunately in October 2019, they found it had come back and spread to her brain. The two years after this, mostly during covid, was a mixture of surgeries, chemo and radiotherapy to manage the cancer

At the start of December 2021, we were given the devastating news that the cancer had grown in the brain and she would have only 6-8 weeks left. This was a conversation between myself and the doctor as my MIL never wanted a timeframe, which we respected. 

I then had to share this news with my partner. I'll never forget the look on his face. We had our wedding planned for 2023 and wanted her to be there so badly. Within 48 hours I'd re-arranged the whole wedding to be on the 30th of December 2021, just three weeks after this news. We told my MIL that we were doing this because of the new strain of COVID, that we didn't want to get to 2023 and then have to delay it. She was overjoyed and so excited

We had the most amazing wedding day, she got drunk, had a cheeky cig and danced the night away in her wheelchair that I'd decorated for her. Two days later she was admitted to hospital. Returning to us two weeks later, then passing away peacefully in her sleep a week later, just over three weeks after the wedding. Again, I had to share that she'd passed to my husband and the look on his face 

Then, a week later I had to take my sister to A&E after a scan showed serious abnormalities to her eyes. Twelve hours later whilst along in an A&E bed surrounded by screaming people, she was told she had suspected Leukemia. Due to COVID regulations they sought special permission so that I could join her. She was transferred to a specialist hospital and referred to a fertility clinic to start the process of freezing her eggs. My sister has always wanted children. We've since been told that it's Acute Lymphoblastic Leukemia. We had been clinging on to hope that the blood test was wrong. 

In the last 5 days, we've had 3 appointments a day at 3 different hospitals. We're lucky, as she's stable I'm allowed to take her and support her 

We're still waiting for the detailed results that will tell us what sub-type this is, and then what type of treatment she will need. Either way, treatment starts on the 15th, two weeks after diagnosis. 

Through all of this my now husband has been amazing. I don't know how either of us could have gotten through this without each other. But, we're lucky we're essentially bystanders in other peoples battles. I've tried to keep it together and am trying to stay strong. 

My mother in laws funeral is next week. And we'll also be finding out the sub-type around this time. Whatever happens I know we'll manage and get through it

But, I had the test to see if we'd be a match for stem cells. It's a bit tricky because we don't know if we're identical twins or not (my mum was 15, and we were unexpected twins, so no one actually knows). We're going to have DNA test to determine this

1) we could be a match, but identical meaning my stem cells are useless

2) we could be fraternal twins and not a match

3) we could be fraternal twins and a match

I don't know how I'll cope if the final option isn't the given results - how do I cope with this?

I know I'll be heartbroken if I can't donate. She's my twin, she's my soul mate. She's always been there for me and this is my chance to be there for her

She's the good twin, I'm the evil on, she doesn't deserve this. I know no one does, but she's the kindest sweetest person you could meet