My Partner has rectal cancer which has now spread to secondary cancer in his liver.
I am his carer this is the hardest job I have done in my life, their are no breaks no time for myself.
I feel like I am losing my sense of identity I don't know who I am any more. I feel very selfish saying this as he is the one with the illness. I love him dearly.
Its the constant uncertainty knowing if he could die, or not. no matter the outcome, things will never be the same again.
I feel like I will always be on edge. I don't know how to deal with these emotions in a positive way.
I don't know who to deal with or manage my emotions around the cancer.
Its the uncertainty nothing is planned anyone
he has been for a CT scan today if the results are ok and the tumour on his liver hasn't spread outside to his other organs they can operate, feels like my heart is being smashed into a thousand pieces.
Are they another carers that would advise who to manage his ? I have previously received counselling, but did not really find this useful.
