Just feeling really down atm, stopped work on 19/11 when told my husbands cancer was terminal and only had a few months left together, just been told I’m being made redundant think it’s because boss doesn’t want to pay me sick pay for 6 months I have only worked there 20 months so no redundancy pay. On top of that not one “friend” has followed through with if you need anything I just feel so alone I go out with my two retrievers for walks to find myself crying because I feel so sorry for me . I have been married 39 years on 29th January and I don’t want to live without him. Sorry for moaning but I’m so sad
Hey Chillipepper,
I am so sorry to hear about your husband. This is tough. I know for me, this is the hardest time I have ever had in my life, truly. We have been married almost 24 years, and I too gave up work late November. I work for the NHS and couldn't go on. I work full time and coming home to my husband who is really just too ill to manage anymore. It happened gradually and I held my ground as I like what I do and can be myself. Whereas now life is pretty lonely. He is in bed 22 hours a day. It's rough! Please know you are not alone. I find this forum really helpful cause none of my friends understand.
It's okay to cry. I find that meditation app Calm helps me some nights- and other simple things for me.
And the dog walking gets me out. I get it.
Take good care- we are here.
T.
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