I’m so angry !!

Anger is a natural part of this awful situation we find ourselves facing. It may not be of help but I deal with it by trying to remember that each day is different and on days when I’m angry I try to take my frustration out on household tasks!!!! I hope that tomorrow is a better day for you both. 
Grasan

Oh Wakey61, I hear you. As Grasan says, anger is part of this emotional roller coaster ride we've all been flung into. It's cruel and its unfair and its scary. 

I know what you mean about being cheated out of your husband. Mine was diagnosed with a grade 4 brain tumour in the part of the brain that controls speech, language and understanding. Two days before his surgery, he had a seizure and was never the same person again. A few short minutes of that ( ok it felt like an eternity at the time) plus the effects of the craniotomy and he's not the same person. But he is who he is. 

I struggle a bit with the making memories bit. His short term memory is severely compromised so while you might have made a new wee memory. he's forgotten it within minutes. That's hard to get your head round but we are where we are.

Having an outlet like this forum is a Godsend. There's always someone around who gets it and is on hand to listen and offer a virtual hug.It’s always good to talk so  remember you can call the Macmillan Support Services on 0808 808 00 00 - most services are open 8am to 8pm, 7 days a week Clicking here to see what is available. This service provides lots of cancer information, emotional support, benefit and financial guidance or just a listening ear.

Hang in there. Sending you a huge virtual hug. Tomorrow's another day and I hope its a brighter one. Stay strong.

love n hugs

Wee Me xx

In October we were told my husband only had months left. He is determined to fight which he has been doing. He is still working when he can but this last week he has been falling asleep a lot. He says he feels like his body is shutting down & making him sleep. He hasn't been physically able to do much work as he feels mentally & physically drained. 

Back in February he was diagnosed with a rare incurable cancer in his peritoneal. He suffered from April 2020 until January 2021 before they were able to find anything. All his tests & scans were coming back normal/clear and it was only when they suspected a blockage in his intestines & they did exploratory surgery that they found the tumours. 

He has done chemotherapy  and the doctor has always been honest with us saying she doesn't know what (if anything) will help slow the rate of cancer growth. He ended up with a blockage in August when he underwent surgery. The surgeon was able to give the oncologist a detailed report of what was found but unfortunately it wasn't good news & we've been told there is a tumour of concern but that another blockage wouldn't be operable due to the location. 

After he was passed to the palliative care team for pain management he put on weight, was able to eat & had lots more energy. It is such a roller coaster of emotions. I try to stay positive for him but it's hard seeing him like this. I feel like we still have so much to sort. 

I hope you both have a better day tomorrow.