Just need some advice

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Hi, I'm feeling very lost at he moment and hoped some of you out there may be able to offer some help.

My partner and I have been together for just over 3 years but live a good way from each other. We see each other every 1-2 months and we were planning on me moving in with him. It's a month since his diagnosis, bowel cancer with secondary liver cancer. Chemo, if suitable for him, is the only option with a stent in the bowel. If the chemo is off the table then he has been given 3-6 months. 

His brother is staying with him at the moment and I desperately want to see him but he doesn't want more than one person there at a time which I understand. His other family members and friends also want to see him and despite letting him know I can come down I just feel that he keeps avoiding the subject or making excuses.

Reading this back it sounds a little childish but I feel so confused and just don't know what to do. I don't want to pressure him but I'm really unsure of what to do.

  • Men have a funny way off dealing with things, I know my partner does he is stage 4 neck and throat cancer we where only together 10 months in January when we got the news he had cancer we have 6 kids between us and where planning in moving in together that was the plan, however he does tend to push me away at times and it hurts and I’ve been open and honest with him, during his treatment he said he didn’t want me there as he didn’t want me to see the way he was but I told him he didn’t have a choice and I drove him each day and he said he was so glad I was there, I would go and see him what have you got to lose he needs you more than ever even if he says different and I bet you when he sees you and knows you there it will make all the difference, if cancer journey I’m on with my partner has taught me anything it’s to enjoy life as you only get one shot at it and take a leap off faith,  always here if you want to chat x 

  • Thanks so much. He has been messed around a fair bit re. cancelled treatments and appointments but thankfully his chemo starts next week. His stent can't go ahead, they weren't able to get it in place so that's not going to happen for now.

    I've managed to get time off in January so I'm taking your advice and going to see him. I think part of his reluctance was my lack of vaccination but I went and got it so hopefully that's no longer an issue.

    Thanks again, I needed to hear that from someone in a similar position. And same goes, if you need to offload or anything at all, get in touch x

  • I’m so glad your going to see him, he will totally love that, my partner appointments have been pushed around abit and it’s like being on a hamster wheel, we found out this week his chemo hasn’t worked and the cancer has now spread to his brain and spinal cord, so more tests and hopefully surgery if he’s fit enough, remember to look after yourself as well easy said than done I know, have a lovely Xmas and stay in touch x

  • I'm so sorry to hear his chemo wasn't successful, that must be such a blow. Hoping you and your family get to enjoy Xmas as much as you can. It's so difficult when every day brings an unknown with it but keep finding a little bit of joy where you can. And same goes, keep in touch, we all need an extra someone xx