Struggling to cope with my mental health

Oh flavour so sorry. I have brought myself to this group tonight because my mental health is not good. My husband has relapsed stage 3 Hodgkins Lymphoma. Tomorrow he goes in for. Heart angiogram and more stents. Getting him ready for salvage chemo. Now im sending you a hug because I know this cancer carer thing can feel very claustrophobic. Trapped. I get times I have nowehere to turn. People say call me but sometimes a person on the phone saying “oh its awful” doesnt do the trick! I dont know if you feel the same but I feel very angry at the moment and Im finding im shutting off from people. Keep it short sharp and simple. Hey look me up if you fancy a chat. I dont find many people who understand the cancer carer journey. How it messes up your head and how it can make you feel very lonely and fragile. Im waiting for those feelings. Right now I think I need a panic room and a large baseball bat!!!! Take it steady and lets hope tomorrow is a better day. If not we are lucky to have this forum!! Hugs xxx

Hi Scaggette thank you so much for replying to me, you really touched a cord with me, I have tapped on friend request but not sure how it works.  I do get angry sometimes, but at the moment it is trying to remember what appointment is needed when, how we are getting there then trying to remember what meds he needs and when, he already has a bubble pack, but because he has chemo tablets they do that in another Chemist so we can get them delivered.  I also get a bit angry at times because my husband wants to just sit or laydown and sleep.  He really could do more to keep his mind going.  You are so right about people saying oh you poor thing, how much more is he going to get?  He doesn't deserve this.  Well you know where we are.  I so agree with the lonely feeling, With all the lovely things people say they do NOT understand this type of loneliness.  Have you got family? I do but they can only do so much.  I really say what I want because they are all trying to stay strong for us.  My daughter said come on mum don't let it get to you keep busy.  I loved the hugs and I am sending you big big hugs back.  When you find that panic room let me know I already have the cap might have to borrow the bat.  Let me know if you get friend request I dont really know what things to tap on to.  BIG BIG HUG especially for you. xxx

Oh flavour!!! Send me the friend request again please. Ive been having phone troubles

I am not totally sure how to do friend request yet, I keep looking but have to go now yet another trip to hospital for hubby to have covid test.  Try again when I find some more time.