Hi, I am new on here. I am not very good at sharing my feelings, I always try to be strong and get through. At the end of August I found out I had a cancerous breath lump and one lymph node. Then after MRI and PET CT scan the hospital said its Lobular breast cancer ER positive and Her2 neg. 4cm and in 1 lymph node no signs of spread any where else. I have been offered a masectomy or masectomy/reconstrution. 2 weeks ago I was put straight on Tamoxifen. I am waiting for an onco test which should be back next Wednesday on an MD meeting day.I am feeling really anxious, starting to feel quite low, I'm so scared about the big operation ahead, if I will get through it, and after.
Now they have mentioned chemotherapy which hadn't been mentioned before. This is so scary to me as my daughter, who is now 17, had kidney cancer a rear cancer bilateral wilmslow tumor when she was 1 and a half, so I remember how hard this was for her and there were some scary times.
I am 46 and premenopausal. I have researched, I have completely changed my food intake, veg, lentils, nuts, fruits. Spices, not much meat, some fish and but of chicken. I have lost weight,.and my family say. I need to eat more, but I'm scared what to put in my body, and trying to give myself the best fighting chance.
Sorry for the very long post. 
Hello Msane50dca2
A warm welcome to the Macmillan Online Community, although I am so sorry to find you joining us. I am Brian one of the Community Champions here on the Online Community.
The Community is divided into cancer specific groups or chat rooms and in your case to connect with people in the same or similar circumstances I would advise you to join the breast Cancer Group. here's the link you need:
Once you click on the link and the page opens up, click on "join" on the black banner at the bottom of the page. Once you have joined the group you can introduce yourself in the "New Here - Say Hello" section by either copying and pasting or reposting your original post there.
I hope the above helps - if you need any help in navigating the Community please do get back to me.
Best wishes - Brian.
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