THE ORIGINAL GANG OF MUSHROOM ROPE BUILDERS (i.e Mel & Em's thread cont...)
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This is the start of a new journey for me and my much loved friends from the original Oesophegus thread on general discussions.
We have become a close group and this will be our new home to continue our journey as life has become very hard for many of us and we keep re-living our journeys with lots of newbies which puts us all back a bit.
So my lovely friends Mel, Sam, Helen, Bern, Jac, Nic, Dawn, Sue, Cath, Lesley, Jani and the many other special friends Mel and I have made over the last 16 months this is it we have a new home.
Love to all and extra strength to carry us through our next stage XXX
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These are the times that your body needs Jac. I too have spent many a day leaking like a fountain, even crying while food shopping and attracting many a strange look, but I will tell you that tomorrow something will have changed in you.
The day after the endless leaking, there is always a calm. You fing a little reserve of strength tucked in your back pocket, and you stand a little taller. So you leak away girl, there are enough tissues and broad shoulders to go round.
Jac- as usual i have no words of wisdom BUT i have been where you are now AND I have come through the other end, almost sane and as i mentioned earlier the sun shone again today, so please dont give up hope.
Nothing we say will help things to be different all we can do is be a safety net and promise you that no matter how far you fall we will always pick you up again.
Cry hunny cry and wake in the morning you will feel numb and as Mel says very calm you will see things differently in the morning and your strength will slowly come back to you my dear friend.
I hate the world right now and wish I could stop all the hurting for everyone.
Reading your post made me want to cry too and my heart goes out to you, it really does. I think all of us here, can feel your pain but, as has been said, we can't take that away (I wish we could) but what we can do is be here for you always, to support you through this so you cry Jac, keep talking to us, sharing with us and we will give you all the strength we can possibly muster between us. You won't fall far, we won't let you.
Okay....am offically cried out! FACT! Am I numb....hell yes, tired too but have managed to get through the past 12 hours intact... Case of I can see clearly now the rain has gone! I know DH's illness is terminal....known that since APRIL, sometimes I chose to ignore it though....I know that this thing will do as it pleases....obviously therefore male in genetic makeup....it just doesn't take the fear away....before we had time scales....now; little quantifying value...just time itself....so today I'm going to take this time and hold it gently, praying that becomes infinite!
Jac, taking this time now, is all you can do. Today is what matters and I know that it was doing just that, that gave me the strength to get through the last few weeks with Dad, knowing we were going to lose him. They are sad, heartbreaking times hun, but very precious ones too. Your friends are all still sending those strength-filled but very gentle (((((((((((((((((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))))))))))) X
Michelle - I am so sorry you are not in a good place but please don't hide away hun. It's difficult to post sometimes when you are feeling like that, we do understand, but try to talk to us a little and we can try to help as much as we can. ((((((((((((((hugs))))))))))) for you too X
for being a friend! xxx
