Awake and up all night

I understand having days like that. Keep strong Kez. Loads of love.

Thanks Gill. 
My husband has been great. It’s actually family that have p••••d me off. 
Do you ever feel like a pot that is ready to boil over. That’s how I feel. If I don’t laugh, I am going to cry.

Sending hugs back. xxx

Thank You. Enjoy the rest of your trip. xx

Oh Kez love, I was a pot boiler for the first several months when OH came home. Not his fault, but there were so many things that I had to get used to and his mother's meddling and unhelpfulness just added to the stress. I did tell her exactly what she could do. I can't say here as I'd get banned!

Fingers crossed you'll be laughing tomorrow sweetie xxx

I never understand why people make a terrible situation worse by being mean. Everybody here needs comfort, love and support from their family.

She's not a very nice person Uki, and after his stroke, three years ago, she gave a masterclass in just how uncaring she was. After his cancer she was even worse so I make a point of avoiding her whenever possible. It's tricky though, as she's his mother but he knows as well.

Never mind her - I've found lots of people here who are of a far superior quality, and I'm very grateful for it. OH's in bed now, so I'll have a root for a good film or some music.

Have you got any plans for the weekend hon, or just trying for some relaxing and cuddles with Pippin? xxx

OH's friends she's known since school are renting a house in Elland for the weekend, so we're meeting up. Only thing I'm worried about is being pulled to the side to ask how I am with that sad, sorrowful look on their faces. I just don't want to have to go through everything with them even though they are lovely. That sounds really mean and ungrateful of me I know.

You are not mean and ungrateful ukiboy. Far from it. What I don't like is people asking me questions that I don't know the answer to. Not people on here. Just people I know.

It's not Uki - I find that pained expression one of the worst things to deal with as it gets me really annoyed. After any initial questions are out of the way, I either swiftly change the subject, or tell them I don't want to talk about it as it upsets OH. They can like it or lump it.

None of my relatives live close by, but the one I see most is my eldest. We've got a pact that I tell her the latest about OH, and then we yap about everything other than that. She's very generous and has bought lots of gadgets that make things more comfortable for him, but she understands that those couple of hours I'm at hers are a time of normality and cancer is taboo. And she never puts the pained look on!

You make sure you enjoy yourselves at your friend's, but subtly let it be known you just want to relax and forget about everything else for a few hours. Maybe a couple of drinks will get you in the mood. That's if you drink at all? I packed it in almost two years ago as I'd gone way over the top with the devil's brew! I'm one of those nutters who always takes things to excess. Lol! xxx

I find it hard to believe you drank to excess Gill. Never known anyone more sober. I wouldn't blame you if you drank a full bottle. I am just joking.xxx