Awake and up all night

I need those for sure xxx

Not sure with hubby about this too as he had the all clear 18 months ago from 5 biopsies 

Thanks, he seems so ill and coughed up small amount of blood afterwards which nurse said was normal but then she said the procedure was recorded as been cancelled on his ward record 

I wish they could have tried this before his throat closed, we went back and fourth the docs but he kept giving food drinks

I keep thinking l should have realised sooner or even queried something. He had the all clear from biopsy  18months ago and tons of scans too

Thanks Gill

They couldn't get a feeding tube in using an endoscopy l feel sick really why they didn't do this weeks ago when the first endoscopy found they could barely get the tube down, its like no one cares or follows through with their jobs. I've tried to support him but l should have spotted that too l feel.

He just doesnt seem well, he coughed up some blood diluted with saliva and he is in his own little bubble if that makes sense. He says now he cant stand his t shirt on his stomach, its such a worry but the scan is back to the team tomorrow 

I'm worried the results might go the wrong way Tuesday and he's asked for his brother and family to be at the meeting.

We just finished renovating our cottage to retire to just moved in a few months ago and l feel like our world is unravelling 

Both our cars broke down today first mine then l used hubby's and l only just managed to get home from the hospital at 20 mph the whole way in the dark hubby's car limped home. 

Im ok but who knows what results day holds 

Trying to stay positive but l just feel this uncomfortable feeling in the background.

Sorry to all this is negative but until Tuesday the future is a bit uncertain 

Thanks to all for sharing the cat pictures. Loved especially the new one from Sarah's cat very exotic cat, but also love 'Anne of Green gables' home cat Pippin x now that shows my age

Dingg love, none of this is your fault - if you'd already been told, several times, that hubby was clear then it's natural to accept that. You're having a run of bad luck with seemingly everything right now but take a breather hon. I'm having trouble with my phone tonight, but as long as it keeps going I'll stay with you.

A heads up for maybe a procedure that might be offered if the Ng can't be performed due to hubby's throat narrowing. They might do a surgical procedure to insert a PEG or RIG tube directly into his stomach. It's a minor operation but he'll be able to get nutrients and meds through it, and some of those tubes he's hooked up to will be made redundant.

I'm not saying they will offer those, but if they're mentioned at all don't be frightened at the thought. OH had a RIG for several months and coped well.

I know how awful it is for you right now sweetheart, but we're all here for you. Sending love xxx

Thanks Gill,

Thanks for that, l appreciate it, but I'll be ok now I've read that, l was worried the tube into his stomach would make him ill

I'm going to make a cuppa of bedtime tea and try and sleep now.

I wont come back on tonight I'll try and get some rest .

I do feel unlucky but l suppose life looks like that if someone is I'll.

Xx

Thanks for the messages Julie

I appreciate it, l wrote to Gill now I'm going to try and get some sleep now wishing you well x

Thanks for the story, sounds like ours he was rescue too.

Thanks for your support I'm going to try and get some sleep hope youre ok too x

You make that cuppa and try to relax sweetie. If you get comfy that should help too.

I really feel for you both and yes, I understand about the bubble as OH pretty much shut down at one point and I fought to get him back. Ok hon, try for some sleep. You're both in my thoughts xxx