Awake and up all night

Ukiboy thank you so much each day is a blessing isnt it. Too see the birds in the trees or listen to the wind blowing is wonderful. The little simple things give me so much joy now. Hope you have a lovely weekrnd xx

Hello. 
I completely agree with you. It’s the little things that I am picking up on too. xx

Thanks Amanda.  I was fine on the first 4 rounds of chemo, apart from when it finished my feet began tingling and I still have heel pain (as well as dropping the vacuum on my toes!)

Then a high does of cyclophosphamide put me in ICU for 4 days (no memory of any of that!) so that needs to be rethought. Will be seeing the consultant on Tuesday about what's next. In hospital, they didn't seen concerned, said there was lots of alternatives.  Just don't want to go through that again!! Very frightening for my family. 

I'm sure I'll feel more upbeat when I've seen the consultant xxx

Oh no its all so scarey im sure they will do everything can can to help you going forward. 

I bet it was awful and your worrying now. Just tell them how you feel. You they will reassure you and tweek everything for you. Xxx

Thanks Amanda. They did offer a change to talk to a nurse about what happened, which I will take up for sure xxx

Hiya Amanda ️ 

Sleeping in this morning had me playing catch-up, but got there now.

That's great news about your hair so celebrate the regrowing with the trip to the hairdresser's before Christmas, as you'll feel fab. Hold Glyn to his promise for Archie minding duties  

Go on lovely, go to the bingo tonight and enjoy yourself as you could have a great time. Even better if you scoop a prize. When I used to go the other punters were so fixated on their cards they didn't look the side anyone else was on! God help you if you made a sound when the numbers were called - then they'd look, with daggers drawn.

A️ll fine here sweetie, from a sunny/showery/windy but warm West Yorkshire.

Love and cwtchs and good luck at the bingo xxx

Afternoon Julie  

Aw sweetheart, you're really going through the mill with your treatment and like Amanda said, I too hope they find ways to tweak it so there'll be no more episodes to worry you all like last time. I pray your consultant will put in good measures on Tuesday.

In the meantime, I hope your toe is recovering from its battle with Sharky. You could always ask your family to club together and get you the most unglamorous Christmas present of all time - a lightweight vac. Either that or a servant. I know which one I'd choose.

Sending you warmest hugs and lots of love hon xxx

Thanks Gill. Yes, a lightweight vacuum is definitely an attractive Christmas present at the moment! 

My toe is very bruised at the end but doesn't hurt unless I catch it in shoes. If it's still like that in 6 weeks, I'll know it was fractured! I've broken my toes many times before!! Think it's just badly bruised though and it's a very small bruise. I'm not sitting in a&e for 6 hours just for that though!!

Hoping the consultant can get me back on track next week. They seemed positive about it all when I was in hospital.  Just want to know the plan now!!

Hope you're ok xxx

Thanks Julie, we're ok

Just think how many nerves are in our extremities - that's why the pain's excruciating when even stubbing a toe or a tiny paper cut on a finger. Saying that I don't blame you at all for not going to A&E, as waiting for hours is a mega pain in the bum! Just keep checking it doesn't go a funny colour, seriously hon.

Hold on to the positivity from the docs, and if the consultant is vague, demand answers as it's all about you in that moment. Stay strong my lovely xxx

And you deserve each day to be beautiful for you beautiful lady.