Awake and up all night

I hope OH’s blood tests go well. xx

Thanks Kez xx

A very groggy afternoon to you, Amanda  

Nope, I had my usual couple of hours' sleep so not great hon. It's my own fault as when OH went to bed I started messing on my phone and kept the fan on, both contributing to keeping me awake. I'm an idiot, knowing we had to be at the GPs and do the shopping. Still far too hot for me and my blood boiled with a mega wait for a taxi. I conked out in the chair almost as soon as we got home.

Hopefully that's my grizzling over for the day

I did some more hacking in the jungle (garden) the other day and the sun dried the blackberry brambles to a crispy pile, making them easier to bag up. I've been giving our poor rose bush water though.

We'd love a sea breeze, you lucky girl. Keep getting those zeds in hon xxx

Hi Kez  

Thanks sweetheart, he's all done and the results should be known in a couple of days. I'll wait patiently as OH doesn't seem bothered either way   he leaves all that to me   xxx

Aw Uki lovey, I'm sorry as you sound really down.

Aye, it's part of Rosa's job to remain unmoved, even though it'll come across as cold, and unless it's happened to them they won't get the torture of 'the wait'.

The cancer only has as much control as you allow it - in our case it's trashed our lives but I won't allow either of us to be defined by it and insist we try to carry on as near normal as possible as the alternative is to spend every day in abject misery. I'm not having that and remain fundamentally the same, obnoxious, bossy, confrontational...

OH isn't keen on that side, unless I'm using it to challenge decisions on his behalf, so he tries to keep the status quo and doesn't get wound up about things as that winds me up. It's a crap life in general but the only one we've got. I've often said I wish we could swap places but OH's admitted he wouldn't be able to do my part, so c'est la vie.

The lousy cancer has done its worst so far, but I'm not prepared to let it make us suffer until it does. And then I'll start fighting again.

Sending you both all our love xxx

I have blood tests tomorrow then appointment to see specialist to find out if tumors have shrunk or have grown as a week ago I had a ct scan then on thursday got chemo session and then on saturday I have chemo infuser taken off my arm 

All the very best for tomorrow, Titan

Sending you hugs xxx

Ukiboy said:

Scan results on Wednesday. Scanxiety rearing it's ugly head.

Hugs

H

Thanks . I am going to pitch tent at Addenbrookes Cambridge 

Julie2468 said:

I have the consultant tomorrow so I feel your pain! 

Hugs

H