Awake and up all night

Yes the consultant wanted me to go home the nurse said they needed the bed. Aww thank you Gill I know you would have supported me. Sending all my love.xx

Sending all mine back to you sweetheart, and I definitely would have had your back.

My problem is I've got small person syndrome - the lack of inches in stature is superceded by having a big gob. Not very nice but it has come in handy.

Well I'm really pleased that the Muller delivery will be with you soon hon, so you make sure you enjoy it, and the visit from Summer and her sister will make you feel much better too. Birthday wishes for her xxx

Gill, you have explained something that was a mystery to me for most of my married life (35 years). My late wife was 5ft 1in. On more than one occasion she threw the hoover downstairs at me. I only asked (nicely) why she was taking so long  - I wanted to hoover the car. The  hoover missed but I was furious. I banged my walking stick very hard in protest on the bannister. My stick broke, leaving me somewhat stranded and defenceless if a boiling over wife stormed down the stairs in attack mode. Luckily we both saw the funny side of it before it escalated. The bannister still has a dent where I hit it. I glued the stick back together but have never trusted it since, so a new one was bought, followed by a matching one a few months later. I've needed 2 sticks for well over 20 years. 

Sonia, I did not realise you'd been discharged so quickly after your op. That must have been a shock and a surprise. I'm glad you've managed to adjust to the forced circumstances and found ways to cope. You're a trooper, 1st class.   Ray xxx

Hi again Ray.

Sonia is indeed a trooper and a very brave one at that. All praise to her for overcoming what would have fazed many.

I remember her telling us she's not tall either, but I'm only 5ft 1" and was always envious of my much taller sister. I was the runt of the family and yeah, I spelled it right although it's debatable.

Ray, your dear wife must have been dynamic and you knew it as you were together for a long time. That's something that can never be taken from you.

This is the third time today that halfway through typing the post has disappeared and I've had to log out and then in again to retrieve it. Has that been happening with you, Ray? Very odd.

Anyway hon, I didn't know you'd been using two sticks for that long - can you still get around a bit without them? OH can but not too great and I think he's got reliant on Walter now. It's something I'd never imagine him using a couple of years ago as he's only 61 now. It should have been me as I'm 6 years older but it doesn't always work like that, does it? xxx

Evening or morning? Yawwwn I am tired and ankle giving grief but hopefully it's muscles n tendons healing. 

Lots I want to say but yawwwn ahem excuse me.

I do wonder why we insist on bottling things up and feel the need to protect others. Of course I know our upbringing plays a part etc.

Years back someone used the phrase 'brutalise it' referring to going through something but not revealing, sharing or letting out our emotional response to it.

I think that is a brilliant phrase because however terrible or terrifying or testing a situation is, we can harm ourselves by trying to contain our response.

Bring on the soft hammers oh and speaking out and speaking up

Nyt folks, will try some sleep 

I’m soo scared have all symptoms of leukaemia and only have my children to speak too but can’t put this on them so I have noone

Yep, it's a good morning Shimmer, and sorry to hear you're tired and painy sweetie. Maybe a good rest will provide a tonic.

That's a brilliant phrase, 'brutalise it'! I guess I'm brutal then as I bottle nothing. It doesn't always go down well but that doesn't bother me either - my maxim has always been like it or lump it.

Get your head down and sleep well chicken. Night night hon xxx

Nan had throat cancer soon as she found out she gave up 

Good morning Unknown, and welcome to our group.

Sweetheart, have you been tested for leukemia and if so, are you under a doctor at your hospital?

Whatever you're going through you're not alone, and you can say anything you want to on here. Hopefully Ray's still up as he's fab with advice.

Hugs my lovely xxx

I watched my man die of this horrible illness was soo painful and don’t want this for my children