Awake and up all night

Welcome Farrah, but I'm so very sorry to hear about your brother. It's very sad and you're right, that's no age at all.

You're obviously still grieving for Lee and it will take time, but eventually you'll start to remember happy times with him and the sadness will diminish.

Until then keep talking about Lee, as it can help you to keep his memory close and feel better in yourself.

Sending you heartfelt sympathy and hugs my lovely xxx

Hi  Farrah. The more you love someone, the more you grieve their passing. You crying every night is so hard but totally understandable. I'm not going to say any greetings card banality, just send you loads of love and best wishes Sounds like you were mega close. I fell out big time with my sister a few years ago and we haven't talked since.You were lucky to have such a fantastic relationship. Again loads of love.

Hi Farrah. Welcome. Sorry to hear of your loss. This is obviously very hard to come to terms with and really it is still very early days.

I say this because for two years you have all been on a rollercoaster... symptoms, diagnosis, treatments, side affects, lifestyle changes and challenges, the knife edge of hope and being thwarted.

It is time to be kind to yourself and you've made a good start by joining us here. There are lots of lovely people going through their own journey or supporting a loved one on theirs.

The forum is divided into specific cancers, specific situations, etc so there are people here who really understand how you feel.

This bit of the forum is for people who find themselves awake at silly o clock, for all sorts of reasons, and you are very welcome to chat here.

Do you have people around you for support?

There is no 'right' way to respond to losing your brother and no timetable for 'coping better'.

Take care

I was also bounced back but to 25 days ago - several times. It is indeed a very warm night and not even a trace of a breeze. I thought all of those huge propellers in fields were supposed to prevent global warming by fanning us cool but they've all been switched off this evening  . 

Just when I think it has cooled off it gets warm and airless again! There was a breeze earlier but it appears to have clocked off for the night!

At a pal's for tea and was  fanning myself with a handy bit of junk mail ... ended up also fanning two dogs and a parrot 

What's the going rate for a punkawallah?

Cheers

Evening Ray of sunshine  

I thought that apt atm but I've had the same palaver with the posts today too. As always I blamed my phone.

It would be helpful if those turbines were good for something other than mincing birds, but there you go.

I'm melting xxx

Thanks for adding that to my vocabulary. The going rate must be similar to an hour or so in a rickshaw, somewhere between £1-20 and £5-50. 

I'm fanning myself with this month's Reliant Owners Club magazine.  

I'm surprised nobody has set up a barbecue or spit roasting stall in those fields. Toasted owl for the evenings, maybe roast bat as well for the vampires. Blade kill must be relatively clean compared with roadkill. Anyway, I don't fancy toasted hedgehog or battered badger. xxx  

 That's a meaty menu to mull over but toasted owl sounds interesting. Ah, but would that make me a cannibal? Yes, probably.

Do you own a Robin Reliant hon? Birds again xxx

I have owned a Reliant Regal and a Reliant Rialto but still own this older one which is a 1961 Reliant Regal MK6. Bought in 1992 but took a while to restore. It has been roadworthy since 2005.  xxx  I'll add a photo if I can make the system work.