Awake and up all night

Hiya hon

I'm going to have a damn good try! I hope you realise you'll get a blue City heart every time I type your username now hon? It's things like that that gets me through the day.

You have a lovely one too, sweetheart xxx

Morning all, I know it's not the middle of the night... but...I don't know if everyone going through their cancer journey can't sleep properly at night.  I know I couldn't.  Was it the worry, the effect of the hormone treatment? 

I used to write in my 'thought diaries' all the time, whatever time of day.  I'm over 5 years now into my diaries.  It's not the cancer that keeps me awake now, it's everything else that's falling to bits. 

I hope everyone in this forum are in a 'good place'.  You all have my best wishes.

1. That generation had experienced a lot more adversary. My Grandma was a little thing, but was made of steel. She had to manage on hardly anything as my grandad, as they say in Yorkshire, pi***d it down the toilet. I remember once, when I was visiting Doncaster, I was walking through the Arndale centre when I noticed my nana beating her way through the teenagers and baby buggies. She came straight up to me, looked me in the face and said " Are those yar own teeth", then darted away. Definitely a character. She outlived a brain tumour and died at 96.

Hiya Steve and welcome back my lovely  

I'm still a night owl when others post - it's a mixture of worry and sheer stupidity that stops yours truly from nodding off, but I catch up when I can.

Hey, I heard you've been to Italy - fab and I hope you had a great time hon. I also know about your lovely neighbours but you'd have to go a looong way to top ours and I'm not kidding.

Lots of new members have joined since you were last here Steve, and they're a smashing gang from all over the country, but none from Newcastle or thereabouts as far as I know.

Anyway, you were right that we'd stay up so I bow to your superior guesswork - it got wobbly though, but that's nowt new being a Leeds fan. I heard the 49ers were funding heart monitors for the new season for all supporters - OH and me could have done with those on several occasions!

Good to see you back fella xxx

Everyone who knows me well gives me a blue heart. Join the club. My name is actually Jean but my grandchildren call me AJ

Hi My mum died from pancreatic cancer in 2004. When I was taken into hospital they thought I had pancreatic cancer as well turned out to be an inflammed pancrease and then behind gallbladder 3 tumors at to of oesophagus again 6 years ago I had that and had major surgery to remove oesphagus. This time surgery not possible having chemo and immunotherapy to give me as comfortable life as possible nloody cancer it can bog off 

Hi Uki Newky brown  

You're not wrong hon - I come from a real tough bunch on both sides and the women were harder than the blokes!

Your Grandma sounds right up my street, not some posh old biddy full of airs and graces, and what a great age she lived to. They were definitely made of strong stuff and didn't know the meaning of woke - if someone riled them they'd either give a gobful or a belt - then forget about it.

Hoping your OH and yourself are doing ok hon, and not forgetting our sweet bundle, Pippin xxx

Morning Jean

That's my sister's name and I was always insanely jealous she got that and I was lumbered with Gillian - I used to call her Jeanie when I was little and sometimes still do.

I think there's something up with my phone today as it's not letting emojis through. I tried with Steve and Uki so if you don't get a blue heart I'm going to cry.

Hope you manage to catch up on lost sleep at some point today sweetheart xxx

Tears averted Jean - worked!

Got scans coming up soon. After the first scan results when she had had treatment the tumours had shrunk by a half. Last results showed an increase, so hoping it will have stabilised m