Awake and up all night

He was great today thanks Gill. I thought they were going to tell me nothing they could do and send me home. It's terrible the things that go through your mind.xxx

Try to get some sleep now lovey, as you'll be exhausted. Honestly, once you get started with your treatment it will fly by. It's over a year since OH finished his and I don't know where the time's gone. 

Get yourself settled now and put your feet up. I imagine it's been a long day and you deserve a rest sweetheart xxx

Gill I have been busy all day letting my family know. Heard from pat she has had a scan an they have found some gynaelogical problems they are keeping her in hospital until they get a care plan together.

Thank you Jane. So kind.xxx

Good to hear you have a plan, it will come round soon enough and then be over with. 

H

This guy wasn't moving for anyone when we pulled in for fuel

The chateau at Noirmoutier en l'Ile 

Hi all

It's just started to cool down a bit so I'm sitting outside with a glass of wine  

H

Thanks ukiboyo

Much has been happening,  we spend most days back and fro to hospital. 

I had an official reply from site coordinators which helped too.

Things are complex, hubby isn't understanding how ill he is and medical staff and myself agree he seems settled and more detail is upsetting him. So I'm fielding off the data myself. 

Hubby not responding to chemo GP thinks if it keeps going this way it could be weeks or months but they cant be sure.

There is more support but l am struggling sometimes.

Just got him back from chemo in hospital and he's on a chemo pump in the dining room myself and pals turned into a little sick room. 

The pressure of it all has given way to the news time may be short if that makes sense.

Feeling a bit numb but want to help hubby

have a better existence as we don't know how long is left.

Hubby and l agreed to try and laugh our way through this.

In the northern parts, not God's country aka Yorkshire lol but further north they have a saying life is not about it being easy its about it being real

Thanks Ukibaby will write more when I'm a bit less tired xx

I hope you can settle a bit tonight, now you know what’s going to happen. Your friends here will be with you every step of the way.

Sarah xx