Blind panic to process of acceptance?

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I am in the nightmarish stage of waiting for treatment to start. After thinking I was starting chemo today I have another 2 week wait for a possible biopsy to determine which treatment to achieve "disease control". Destabilising is an understatement. I am a mess.

Can anyone say how they felt once treatment got started. Did the dark panic recede? Do things start to feel more "normal"? How do you adjust?

I guess I'm looking for advice on reaching a form of acceptance instead of living in blind panic.

  • I have been managing to drink a bottle of huel in the evening, has anyone else done this? I was a bit worried about taking the 3 pills on that instead of solid food but just couldn't face it.

  • I agree with the others that once you start treatment, as you have now, it’s a different experience. I found I developed a let’s get on with it mentality. That said, when I had a setback and had to change treatment, I went backwards for a bit! Wishing you the best of luck.