Feeling really low and overwhelmed at the moment. And lonely. Had breast cancer diagnosis 2013 mastectomy treatment then tamoxifen. Reconstruction 2017. Rediagnosed Oct 2019. Had radio. Since then on zoladex letrozole and abemaciclib. They can’t remove tumour but drugs are controlling it. Have three teenaged kids (16, 15 and 12) they have all had various issues lately with lockdown/school etc. Lots of tears shouting swearing been going on. On top of that husband made redundant has now found work but he massively resents the cancer being once again in our (his) life. Massive rows and he always calls me names and makes me feel like shit. I am feeling like there is so much that needs too much of me. I am close to tears most of the time. I can’t be bothered to clean the house or do anything. Then I feel guilty that I’m lazy. That I’m not properly there for the kids. That are rows are making them feel bad.
