Hi everyone 
So after a year of treatment- 2 surgeries, 8 chemos, 15 radiotherapies and now just ongoing hormone therapy, I’m finally finished! Of course I’m relieved, but I can’t help but feel like I’ve been put in a boat and left in the middle of the ocean! I’m terrified of it coming back and having to do it all over again. Any advice please? Is this a normal feeling?!
Best wishes to you all x
Hi DawnyB welcome to the forum and the answer to your question about is this a normal feeling is YES.
That fear never leaves us I'm afraid but it does subside and can go the back of your mind until something happens and out it pops to the front of your mind if that makes sense. Well done though on getting through all that treatment its some journey and not and easy one either and I'm sure I don't need to tell you that.
It should be a time of great celebration after all that treatment is done but I know from personal experience it can be anything but and can feel very lonely and scarey so you are not alone in feeling this way and it will improve with time.
Im wondering if you have ever heard of an article by Dr Peter Harvey called "After the treatment finishes what next" I can't seem to find my link to this but if you look this up on the internet have a good read and Ill bet that you will find yourself in the words as I did it will make sense when you read it. For the moment be assured that you are not alone and that what you are feeling is normal and will go but maybe not for some time until you find the new normal for you.
Meantime Im sending some huge big hugs your way for now. xxxxx
gail
Hiya DawnyB......I totally understand where you're coming from....I'm in the same boat...my journey started 1st Feb last year operation, chemo and radiotherapy....ended Oct 5th....now I'm checking for lumps daily and pretty much driving myself mad.... made worse by the situation we all find ourselves in!!
Normally I'm great at giving myself a good talking to and pulling myself together but this is crackers!! Lol....
Hoping it does go to the back of our minds like Granny59 says.....
Best wishes
Yvette x
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