REALLY hate the size of my new boobs

Hi Babcia66

Firstly how you are feeling is perfectly normal, you have recently had major surgery which has changed the body you have been looking at for many years.  It does take time to get used to your new boobs.  I had the DIEP surgery with a number of revisions and each time I had a period of crying over whether I should of left them as they were, the nipple reconstruction floored me, I was even at a point I wanted to ask the surgeon to remove them, 18 months later I still have nipples and looking in the mirror it is now normal to see them!

I know you have put you have had a really easy ride compared to some but no matter what levels of treatment you have had, been diagnosed with Breast Cancer is very traumatic and although you haven’t had the chemical drug treatment you have had what most women dread when they are diagnosed and that is removing their breasts.  Reading your post you have had a roller coaster of a year, with the complications of COVID to add to it.  From diagnosis to now you have probably been in attack survival mode and now everything is sinking in, fighting cancer is hard.

I would give yourself time, it is still early days, I am not a doctor but you probably still have some swelling and I believe it takes time for implants to settle. If you still are upset after a few months then speak to your surgeon about your concerns, certainly never feel like you are making a fuss.

As they say time is a healer and it does get better, I am a 10 year survivor with BRCA1, just waiting for my nipple tattoo, which I will most likely regret at first as it is just another thing in my ever changing boobs.

Sometimes we just need a bluming good cry and to hear it is normal, there is absolutely nothing wrong with you x

I hope you do start to love your new boobs, just think some people pay thousands to have a boob job! Sorry just my little humour x

There are some amazing women on this site, who I would say feel exactly the same as you so you are not alone.

Take care x

Thank you Shellb. I feel heard and understood. I do think you're right and I am now finally processing what has happened to me, but also think that this experience has brought to the surface issues of my past which could do with examining and healing. I'm considering counselling.