My husband died in my arms on the 2nd May (2009) - what happens now?

Morning everyone!!

Our thread was on the 3rd page! Cant be having that lol!

Gayle well done on the e baying, I have got loads of Pauls tools and electrical devices he used that I really should think about selling. Maybe one weekend when I m actually home that will be my next mission!

Friday ladies!! Another weekend planned, but been so tired the week has passed quickly. Not got any energy for anything in the week, not even been to the gym and ordered my shopping on line! Enjoying it though xx

Lynne and Manda have a good gtg in York, what has everyone else planned?

Helen xxx

Sorry girls but I have too many lumpy bits to be a Page Three Girl!  So I agree with Helen - it's not on!!!!

Gayle well done on selling your stuff - I've thought about it but not yet done anything about it!! 

This weekend looks set to be wet and windy - so indoor pursuits methinks....now what could that be?????

Hope everyone is OK

Love and ((((hugs))))

Dot xxxxxxxxxxx

Just a quick one as I am waiting on the electrician coming to take down a chandelier (lol - ooer don't I sound posh!!!).  Anyway, Helen have a great time in Manchester but just wanted to say that my Dad sold a lot of his tools at our local auction house.  Its a big place that does all different types of auctions and he just handed the stuff in and then got a cheque in the post.  I am sure there will be somewhere near you and it would save you all the hassle (and emotional upset) of Ebay xxx

Hello all, I hope that you are all having the best day you can. I am having a few computer problems at the moment so just dropping by intermittently.

Anyway, just wanted to drop by. I have my walk on Saturday and Ray's birthday on Sunday. I have just found out I need to start on some lifelong medication. I know there are far worse things in this life in the great scheme of things but for some reason am feeling very sorry for myself (shame on me).

Penguin hugs to all coming up to 'special' days along this awful journey. I hope that you manage to get through them without too many traumas. I am sending out angel blessings to you all.

Love and angel hugs x x x Patricia x x x

Ah Patricia , youve come to the right place for some sympathy hun , sending a big hug , are you coming to London ? sorry i can't remember , We really will have to have a meadow hell meet soon , take care .. Gayle well done on all your hard work this week , your doing so well with the move but please please tell me you've not sold my bed !!!!!!! .

 Roll on next week but as you know i've got York this weekend with the lovely Amanda and the crazy scott (ha ha hope she never reads this lol ) I'm so looking forward to seeing Amanda , where would we be without these meets . Helen , enjoy your weekend in Manchester , i'm glad its not just me thats never at home lol oh well its going to be a long winter so i'm going to make the most of it whilst i can ..

My dad has had to go to the docs again , he has another mouth infection and i know its getting him down  ,but i keep telling him at least he's still here .

  Page 3 !!! Helen what ever next .

 Anyway love and hugs to all

 take care

 Lynne xxxxx

oh Lynne, your poor dad x x  I hope he feels a little better soon.  Have a good trip to York. I am afraid I cannot make it to London, but I hope you all have a good time.

Judi, hurry back. We miss you.

Lesley I hope you are ok. Difficult day for you. x x x

Everyone else, have a good evening/week-end whatever you may be doing.

Love and angel hugs x x x Patricia x x x

Evening All, Gayle well done at selling things on eBay, you getting packed up ready for move. Patricia thinking of you this weekend. Helen enjoy your weekend. Sending a big hug for those who are reaching the first anniversary's. Keep swimming as Helen says. Lynne sorry to hear about your dad having another infection give him a hug from me. I am just in from seeing my dad into bed, we are still busy at his house just now getting a new shower in for him. I am going to the local theatre tomorrow night to see a band and tribute to Elvis so it should be good. Ailsa hope you get on ok at weekend. Judi we miss you hurry and cone back. Wish I had been coming to London meet but look forward to seeing you all at Glas meet. Bud will not give me peace so I am off to feed him and see if he will settle down. Sending hugs to you all Fiona xxxxx

Morning everyone

Ha ha Dot..page 3!! Didnt look at it that way! We ll be doing Calendar girls next lol.

Patricia sending you big hugs xxx Hopefully it wont seem as daunting in a few weeks of taking them.

Lesley well done on getting through yesterday and enjoy Manchester, may bump into you! G has agreed to go bit earlier and go shopping! What more could a girl ask for! Shopping, meal and nice hotel! Yes Lynne next weekend will be the 3rd on the run I ve been away! Oh well. we re worth it he he!! Have a lovely time in York

Sorry to hear about your dad`s mouth again, poor thing xxxxx

Fiona have a great night, sounds fun!

Gayle sounds like something to look into with Paul`s tools, thanks for that. Will make some enquiries.

Judi sounds settled which I am so pleased to hear, think she ll back on in a week or so

Have a good Saturday everyone, just keep swimming!!! We re getting there, wherever there is lol!!! xxx

Helen xxx

Evening everyone,

Hope you are all well.  Sorry to hear about the pills Patricia and Ailsa is right, moan all you like on here - thats what we are here for.  I hate taking pills too and avoid them like the plague.  Fiona, hope you have a nice night out tonight and hope you do too Helen.  Lynne seems to be having a nice time in York, hope your dad is feeling a bit better soon.  Hope your moving is going okay Ailsa, and hopefully Judes will be back online soon.  Lynda, hope you are feeling a bit better now and Temple, hope you are doing okay and still looking in.  Bug higs to everyone else as my brain is having difficulty retaining stuff at the moment.  Far too much going on and stressing out a little now about it.  I am sure it will all be fine but I am tired today so that doesn't help.  I was out last night so a bit delicate today but more probably just because I am tired rather than a hangover.  I had to get up early today as some of the furniture I sold was going away.  I haven't sold your bed Lynne lol as you are sleeping in Jamie's bed.  I came across an old picture that I loved but had hidden away as I couldn't bare looking at it which I put on FB today.  It really set me off again.  It was Jamies 2nd birthday and we had a party in the garden with about 80 friends and family and it was a great day.  Ewan was only about 5 months old and Wully was going through a well period so everything was looking up for us.  I just think it was such a happy perfect family picture.  Then the boys out of nowhere tonight started quizing me about their Dad.  My boyfriend had just been over and that was the first time they had saw him but they were playing outside so I didn't make a fuss they just came in and said hello and then went back out again thankfully (I wasn't wanting them to meet him but it was the only chance I could get to see him and he convinced me that I could just say he was a friend).  So I thought they would ask about him when he left but they didn't.  Jamie started by asking how old his dad was so I told him he was 46 when he died.  Then he asked who was with daddy when he died?  It really floored me that question and it was all I could do to answer it without breaking down and told him that it was me and his auntie and her boyfriend.  He then asked what happened, how did he die?  It was heartbreaking.  Their questions are just so direct and so painful but you have to answer them as truthfully as possible as I don't want to hide anything from them.  Like I said though I am very tired today so very emotional.  I came in last night from the pub to an empty house and empty bed and felt very very alone.  I suppose I just have to get used to it and you would think I would by now but it is still so hard.  I think I am just probably all upside down with the move too as I am really not wanting to do it but I know I have to financially and for the boys.  I don't want to live in the town.  I like living in the middle of nowhere where I can hide away from the world but that isn't fair on the kids.  I will get used to it I suppose but I am just dragging my heels a bit about it.  Sorry for all the moans tonight but I don't want to moan to friends and family about moving and how emotional it is as I don't like them worrying or constantly thinking there she goes again.  Someone come and give me a kick up the bum!!!  On a lighter note, I had organised the London meet but hadn't actually booked the restaurant :)  I did book it this week and all was ok thankfully, however they phoned me this morning to confirm the reservation for today???  I was like no lol.  Next Saturday.  Thankfully all is okay but they had me sweating! 

Hope you all have a good a weekend as you can.

Gayle xxxx

Dear Gayle - I won't give you a 'kick up the bum' but a big comforting ((((((hug))))))...........because I feel that you need that more!!!!  You don't have to apologise for moaning on here.......we all do it from time to time and get the support/((hugs))/advice that we seek without worrying close family and friends......That's what we do best on here...........

Love and more ((((((hugs)))))

Dot xxxxxxxxxxx