My husband died in my arms on the 2nd May (2009) - what happens now?

Hi Bren - Sending you big hugs and looking forward to seeing you next week.

Love, Mo

Well done with the cards Sue , still cant see me doing any , might change my mind but i'm not holding out much hope lol Ironing all done , only neede 2 shirts for work yippee then off for a few days , a few weeks i would have been full of dread having time at home but now i know i will be so busy i'm looking forward to it (i think) . xxxxx

Evening everyone

Well I went out again last night, just to our local but it was good. Been xmas shopping today with Nat. Wasn`t in the mood at all but had a list and got most of the things on it. We have also just decorated the tree. No cards written yet though!!

Manda glad you`ve got the casket you wanted.

Fiona been thinking about you xxx

Lynne you dirty stop out lol!! Even I don`t stay out that late!! Good for you xx

Ailsa hope you have a calmer week. When do you finish for Xmas hols?

We finish Friday, 5 more mornings to get up and counting!!

Bug higs to everyone here

Helen xxx

Hi.  I don't finish until the 22nd I'm afraid.  Still - I have managed to get a lot done.  Had a busy day today so my new chair is up in the sittingroom now and my van is all nice and clean.  I got my dining room trimmed up as well ready for Christmas dinner.  Regardless of how it sounds I don't have quite so many 'must dos' to do next week.  I am having dinner at my Mum & Dad's on Tuesday so that will mean I have a night off.  My youngest daughter is on her way round to see me for a bit so that will be nice.  How are you doing Fiona?  Hope you are okay.

When I go to M&D's on Tuesday I am going to see a video of my sisters wedding that I missed so I am looking forward to that.  Also looking forward to x-factor tonight!!  Ailsa xx

There is room for all of you on the ledge girls, anytime and you are always always welcome.  There will be rugs, hot chocolate and sandwiches available at anytime and lots and lots of love.  As it isn't on Google Earth or Multimap yet, if any of you ever feel alone, abandoned or just need "the ledge" just close your eyes, hold out your hand and imagine the most beautiful view in the world, take a deep breath and reach out your hands, we'll all be there.

Watching X FActor now, I can't see how Olly can't win he is the whole package, he is amazing.  Joe has a wonderful voice and seems to be a lovely bloke too, but hasn't got the "X factor" for me.  Wasn't Robbie Williams amazing with Olly, they looked lke they could get into SO much trouble together and what about Stacey and Michael Buble?  They were brilliant, a lovely couple in the making.  Oh and whats up with Cheryl?  Is she pregnant, has she lost a baby, is she "with" Simon?

See you all later, much love xxxxxxx

See you on the ledge later - I've chosen my view.

Hi everybody , gutted about Olly , cant wait for the tour now i know who i will be watching xx

Gordons Cousin has just left a recorded message on my phone , her sister in law only has hours to live (she's had MS) for years . She apoligised for not answering my e mail and said would i put something on the grave for her .. I'm not sure why she sent the recorded message rather than phone me , it might have been to hard for her to tak to me as she was really upset and she said she knew that i could understand how things are very difficult at the moment . The lady who hasn't got long to live came to Gordons funeral and he was very close to her husband (his cousin) We had spent a few weekends with them . I'm so very very sad for him to be going through this . They live in Scotland so i'm thinking now i really should go to the funeral if its possible . I'll just see what happens as we all know these things are very unpredictable . I think i need the ledge , the View is fantastic Sue .

xxxxxxx

Also gutted for Olly, but have to admit that Joe does have a beautiful voice,but I think Olly is more versatile.  Watching Susan Boyle now, beautiful duet with Elaine Paige.

Lynne how awful for you and your friend, it must have been hard hearing the recorded message, but then also hard for her to leave it for you.  Are you okay?  I know we joke but in my mind I am imagining our ledge, looking at Sue's beautiful view (well done Sue) and as it grows dark we can sit together and watch the meteor shower tonight, just as we will join together on Christmas evening to release our Sky candles, we can always join together in our special place, on our ledge. 

Off to bed but thinking of you all and sending love, see you on the ledge xxxxxxxxx

Hi everyone.  Getting the message from Gordon's cousin must have been very difficult for you Lynne.  I hope you are okay.  I hope everyone else is okay as well.  I have been thinking about Fiona & Patricia a lot today.  How are you two?  I want to retreat to the ledge as well tonight.  Usual story with me - I promised myself I would go to bed by 11 tonight but I can be sure I will work right up to 11 and then expect to drop off straight away.  I love the view from the ledge Sue.  How is your cold - hope it isn't too bad.  I hope everyone else is okay this evening.  Take care.  Ailsa xxx

Hi everyone.

I have just watched the Susan Boyle story too, and teary through the whole thing, mind you I was teary when Olly was singing, oh and when Joe won, and then when he could harldy speak  - in fact a Yellow Pages advert would probably bring tears!!  But having said that I don't mean I have had a bad day or anything, just that it doesn't take much (for that read anything!) to bring tears does it girls? 

I went Christmas shopping this afternoon and after three hours I gave up, I had managed to buy nothing, zip, nada, niente ... oh that's not true, I did manage a pack of half price cards! 

Fiona and Patrica, hope you guys are doing okay - have been thinking of you.  Manda, just you be careful going up that ladder, you have been in touch with Lynne far too often to be doing that kind of thing, her 'very special ways' might rub off on you! So glad that your friend came round and you had a real hug - but don't forget that our 'virtual Hig Bugs' are still winging there way from all of us.

Sue, I LOVE your view - can you arrange to keep the sun exactly where is is, I don't really want it to go down - it looks beautiful just like that.  Rosemary - can you keep me a space quite near the fire? I too can see us all sitting there, staring into the horizon - just slowly pulling the blankets round our shoulders as it gets chillier.  I think that I might pop a wee flask with mulled wine in my bag, just in case we need a 'nip' as we say up here.  I can see us all there, saying "budge up a bit" as another one arrives.  How comforting does that sound.  Idle chat and stories, swapping memories, tears and laughter.

Helen is counting how many 'sleeps' until work is done, Lynne is counting shirts!!  your photos are lovely Lynne, 2.45am very impressive!  Enjoy the video Ailsa, and SLOW DOWN you are putting some of us to shame.

Love to everyone else - off to make a coffee and watch the end of The Abyss on Film 4.  Ed Harris is one of my all time lovliest men - no I don't have your 'normal' taste as I would probably choose Ed Harris over George Clooney ......... actually I'll have to go and consider that one more carefully.

Judi xxxxx