My husband - Chris - died on the 2nd May 2009 because he had anal cancer. He knew he was going and we spoke about lots and lots of things before he died. That is why I am just not prepared for the huge amount of guilt I feel now. I feel guilty that the world hasn't stopped turning round even though he has died. I feel like everything should stop as a mark of respect. I also feel very guilty that he had to be so ill he had to die. What a cruel cruel thing it is to make someone so ill their body just stops working. I wasn't ready for him to go. I really really hope these are normal feelings because I must hang on to my sanity for the sake of my 3 children. I have never known sadness like I feel right now. I can't believe that I will not hear his voice or feel his touch again. We were married for almost 32 years and I have known Chris for 34 years - since I was 16. What happens now? Ailsa
Hi Ladies, Just catching up on the post, well my weekend was not good my niece found my dad on the living room floor when she went with his tea on Sat night, he hurt his back but will not have the doctor ( he is so stubborn) so it was a job getting him to move on Sun he just wanted to stay in bed but trying to tell him he would only stiffing up more managed to get him up about 7 in the evening for a couple of hours, tried him to have doctor today again but he will just not give in think he is frightened they will put him in the hospital. What a life. It's Wed my sister and me are meant to be going to Edinburgh to musical so just hope he feels better tomorrow. Kim still holding on 2 weeks to go now but she is getting fed up now. Hope everyone is doing ok ? I must start having a pen and paper beside me as by time i have read all the posts i have forgot what you have all been up to. Well i am off to get my knitting needles going, speak tomorrow. Luv and Higs Fiona xxxxxxxxxxxx
Thanks, Lynne
You can't read it clearly - the largr photo wouldn't post.
It says 'deep peace of the infinite peace to you', which was the last line of the celtic blessing read at the end of his service.
6 months on sunday.
Lynne, you just HAVE to dress up to go to see the show. My granddaughter went for her 6th birthday treat last month and loved it.
Sue xx
Hi Fiona , i hope you dad gets better soon , i know what dads can be ,i still go everday to see him , hope you get to your musical xx
Not sure what India has got to do with it , think the stone must be coming from there , ha ha i wont be wearing a princess dress , i wish lol ..
Lynne xxxx
Evening girls - just been catching up with you all - but my retired brain cell found it all too much and can't remember a thing!!! So I'll just send you all love and (((((((((((((bug higs)))))))))))))) Dot xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
PS Lynne - you have to get into the spirit (?) of these things and dress up...or maybe just get into the spirit...............
How lovely ...........I'm sure that shade of pink will suit you. Might be a bit difficult driving in glass slippers though???
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