My husband died in my arms on the 2nd May (2009) - what happens now?

Not fair at all, I haven't got a laptop and have to sit at a desk upstairs .... where it can be not very warm ..... and when it rains it sounds like being in a caravan .... and I have to shout downstairs to the dogs if they are misbehaving (never happens) and the fridge with the wine in is miles away!

As you can tell am feeling better today.  Horrible, horrible, horrible day yesterday, not so much a rollercoaster, more like that dreadful 'thing' at Alton Towers that takes you up and then you go straight, and I mean straight, down into a big hole in the ground that Boy made me take him on when he was little, I believe it is called Oblivion! 

I am not going to say sorry, cos I know you lot will say I don't need to ... but I will say thank you very much.  I find it so easy to come on here and just be 'me' however I am feeling, cos I know that you all realise that it can be a life of extremes, and one day you can be in the mood for a giggle etc and the next just desparate.  I try to show a  'more even keel' to friends and family cos I think if they saw the ups and downs and how extreme they can be they would haul me away!

Anyway - the sun shone a little today and I went to work and came home - but not like yesterday at all for some odd reason.  Had my tea, and to celebrate feeling CHirrpier I had CHilli and CHeese and CHips.  I know, I know - Patricia will have my guts for garters, but it was really yummy - and I did put it in two separate white square bowls so that it looked like Bistro grub.  Now I am on a theme I will have to think what letters I will have for tea tomorrow! LOL.  Maybe TAgliatelli and TAramasalata ... Any suggestions

Lynne I am SO HAPPY that you are going away with your sister - you little star you. Sue, did you take that photo through my window yesterday - that is my good side!!

No real plans here either for this weekend, I think we are going to get your rain tomorrow - Boy phoned this evening - we had a long chat about my night away at the hotel etc.  He was laughing with me when I explained that I really hadn't needed that Brandy and Baileys night cap.  He says that if get to meet up with you guys he is going to stand around the corner with a megaphone saying "STEP AWAY FROM THE GLASS MUM" in a loud voice!  Cheeky monkey.

Loads of love to all, Dottee, Fiona, Gayle .... where are you, I thought your broadband was back today ... Manda, Patrica, Rosemary, and Oh la la Ailsa.

Judi xxxx

Hi Judi glad your feeling a bit better today , doen't it take you by suprise when that black hole comes . I've had quite a "even " week if you know what i mean , hope this keeps up with not to many dips , but as we all know anything can happen . Still not sure if i'm doing the right thing with the holl but at that price i couldn't say no really and its another 5 days out of this routine boardom . I really do not know what i'd have done if i hadn't met you lot So i'll say thank you too

Hi Lynne - When you were looking the other way, we all had a vote, and it is unanimous that you have to go on holiday, and we also decided that five days is the perfect amount of time, cos we need you back here then to keep us in order.  Judi xxx

Hi Judi - did you have some CHocolate afterwards?????  Maybe SAlmon and SAlad would be a healthier option??

Judes is right, Lynne - benidorm for 5 days it is.

Judes - how about spaghetti and spinach?   fish and fromage frais? (no, that's silly)

sardines and salami?

Glad you`re feeling better Judi xxx You`ll have to get a lappy then you can join us al cosy in bed!!!

Laughing at Boy!!! Can just picture it!!

You`re right, think we only voice our real feelings on here!! Had M in law on phone before checking up on me!! `I`m ok!!!` lol xxx

Hugs, sorry higs to everyone xxxx

Well ok Judi , the things that happen behind my back really !!! i'll be going i,ve given her my 66 quid now . I can imagine your son trying to embarress you but me thinks you would turn the tables on him lol .I really wish we all lived in a land where travel was a blink of an eye and we could all meet whenever we could ,  I think i've spent to much time with the grand kiddies , i could just have said i wish we all lived closer to each other but thats boring and we,ve had enough of boardom now lol .

Hi Dotee , i've read your post on carrying on , good luck for mon xx hope everything is ok and this is just a little set back and nothing serious . xx

Lynne xxxxx

Lynne - blinks of an eye - too much Balamory I think!!! LOL (love it really, much better way of describing us all meeting up). Maybe just click our red shoes together three times (am I showing my age here?)

Sue - you know SArdines and SAlami and SPinach and SPaghetti both sound alright to me!!! Dottee - CHocolate is not ever part of my meal - it is my whole day!! LOL

Night night all, I think maybe I have to take a trip to PC world and get a laptop.

Judes xxx

Hi everyone, I have been out with mum in law and took her for fish and chips (her favourite) at the Wetherby Whaler. Unfortunately I omitted to check whether it was on the ground floor. Oops poor mil had to climb up a flight of stairs. A mamoth task for her as she has only 50% heart capacity. It was worth it though as she enjoyed her meal. I am now at work and having a few minutes break, so thought I would come on here and visit.

Lynne, glad to see you have booked your trip but you forgot to ask me if i was free.

Sorry you are all so bored. Hope you have a better day on Saturday.

Well I must go now. Duty calls.

Love and angel hugs x x Patricia x x

Judes - PC WORLD is calling you!!!

Go, shop!!!!