So, today is 3 years since I lost my beloved Jay to bowel cancer. It just hardly feels like that the time has gone by so quickly and still feels like yesterday. Nothing major planned to mark it just here on my own with my memories just a day just now like any other day. I feel I have moved on be it ever so slightly not as much as I hoped but then there is a saying that some things are a `marathon and not a race`. Just wish he was here to see all the good things that have happened in those 3 years but no doubt he will be somewhere in the universe watching all that's going on. Had some challenges as well without him but hope he's somewhere giving me a helping hand with those sometimes he just knew like my dad how to sort things out without having to actually think about it or know the right words to say so hopefully the two of them are up there guiding me through my troubles.
Thanks again everyone. Its been a weird couple of days. I just keeping thinking back to what I was doing 3 years ago and how far on (or not) I've have come and just can't comprehend that 3 years have passed. If I remember the weather was like this too blistering sunshine. Sat outside for a little while yesterday but just a wee bit too warm so had to come inside the poor dog as well he didn't know where to put himself he found shaded areas though and I put water out for him but he was quite restless so I came back inside. We are not quite up near the 30 degrees as some of you are getting but not far off it. The temperature in Glasgow today is 27 was out in the car a little while ago and it was like an oven and that was with all the windows open and the air con on. We in the UK are just not prepared for this heat and then we moan when we get it and moan when we don't you can't win. So anyway I was just thinking to myself yesterday wouldn't it be lovely if Jay could just come back for a week or so just to see how I am doing. I say this a lot and have said it here before but just so much I want to tell him and although I speak to his photograph sometimes its not enough. As one of you said its good we can believe that their spirit is still around and know that they're maybe some where around in the universe watching over us just got to try to hold on to that.
xx
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