I am a believer that when someone passes away that they are in heaven with the rest of their family and loved ones that they have lost.
I told Pete on his death bed that we would only be apart until l joined him.
This belief l have had since my dad died when l was 17 years old. But just lately l am getting really upset by my thoughts.
What if my parents wont be there?
What if my brothers and sisters wont be there?
But MOST fearful what if Pete is not there??
I am in tears, l have always believed that we will always meet up together?
I told Pete that on his death bed he will not have any more pain, no more hernias, no more stoma, no more pain, and l will be there with him.
But what if he is not there when l go to him???
Hello
You never need to apologise for a delay in replying. Everyone on this forum are going through incredible difficulties. A couple of months ago, I really thought I was managing better, more recently, I even started to feel more positive, but then suddenly, everything collapsed, spent the last few days crying on and off, even cried when I said goodnight to my Linda, which I’ve never done before. I think about death more lately, which is not good, I guess it depends on your mindset at the time. I miss my Linda more than anything in the world, I so hope we are reunited one day.
take care of you x
Linda You are my best memory, You are all of my best memories
I know what you mean, l used to be afraid of dying but now not so much, as l know that l will be with Pete. What weird and painful thoughts we all have., Grief is so callus that it cuts like a knife, where the wound never really heals .
I know exactly what you mean, still can’t believe how terribly painful it is. Been a year and I’m not sure if I’m really that much better prepared for a life without Linda, than I was when she passed. Was looking through some photos of us on holiday in Cornwall, broke down in tears, asked her why she left me, I wasn’t ready to lose her. My every waking thought is of her, nothing else really matters. I get temporary moments, when I feel at peace and positive, usually when I’m with family. But these moments are always too short, and I’m usually much worse after. The feeling of emptiness is overwhelming. When I tell my kids how I feel, I get sympathy, with suggestions of joining clubs etc. maybe it will help, but that’s not what I want, I need my Linda back with me. I know my kids are suffering as well, but I don’t know if they really get what it’s like to lose a lifetime partner. I thought it would be similar to losing my parents, but there is no comparison, I even lost my sister to cancer a short while ago,( hadn’t seen her for many years & found out by accident ) I was sad, but it doesn’t occupy my every waking thought, as my Linda does.
please take good care of you x
Linda You are my best memory, You are all of my best memories
Hello
thats so amazing, must have felt wonderful, I have had dreams about Linda, the first ones were when she was younger, but the the more recent ones are of her older, but these are upsetting, as when I try to talk or get close to her, she vanishes and I realise ( still in my dream) that she’s not here anymore so it can’t be real. Haven’t had any of Linda for a while, but I always write them down in my phone diary and can go back and relive them. Your dream sounds very special, thank you for sharing it
Linda You are my best memory, You are all of my best memories
