Hey everyone, I'm a newbie here so am just dropping my first message here.
I lost my husband to Prostate cancer back in 2011. It was a difficult time for me as he passed away just mere days before my 24th birthday and just a month shy of our 3rd wedding anniversary, also his birthday (valentines day).
Needless to say we had amazing support from Macmillan, and even after he had passed away they still kept in touch with me for bereavement support.
I won't lie, i struggled immensely and some days I just wanted to give up, but i knew if I did I would have been letting him down and myself too.Being so young at the time and being his carer from the time of diagnosis to the time he died, looking back it has put my life into a whole new perspective, I now appreciate so much more of what I have, just 3 years after he passed I was blessed with my daughter, who is my absolute world.
I've gone on now to gain a diploma in Special Educational Needs and Disability, and I am starting a whole new career direction as a volunteer teaching assistant tomorrow. (27th September). My late husband always knew that it was my dream to be a mother, and because of his illness we were unable to live that dream together, so in turn I feel that I am living his dream for him. We did talk about it, and we had even discussed that if it were to happen the names we would have picked. So in memoriam of him I chose to name my daughter Daisy-Mae, which was his choice of girls name, so really, I always have a part of him with me.
I now have a wonderful man in my life who has taken my daughter under his wing and loves her as his own, he knows what I have been through regarding my late husband and is so supportive of me, he understands that it's sometimes difficult for me to talk about it and comforts me if I get upset when I do talk about it.
I've learnt over the years how to cope with it and deal with the fact that I have lost someone dear to me and I believe that time can be a healer with the right people around you. Granted yes, I love my partner with all my heart, of course I do, but there will always be a small place in my heart that belongs to my husband.
So i am basically here to offer to anyone a person to talk to, feel free to as me questions about what I did, how I coped etc, I have no problem talking to you about whatever you wish to ask.
Best wishes
Xxx
