My husband died 18 weeks ago and it goes without saying about the pain and loneliness I feel without him. After his funeral when everyone goes back to their normal lives and I was left physically alone (although I am very lucky to have friends who check on my by phone or text every day) and thought that I can actually sit and cry about it, isolate myself etc or I can do something about it, which I have. In the past week I’ve taken a step back I feel, to experience the pain and I have hidden myself away. Now an opportunity has come to go away for a couple of days with a close friend who was with us as my husband left this world. I have chosen to go back to a place we both loved and booked it. It’s in the UK. Since yesterday, I’ve been tormented with doubt. Will it be too painful to be there without him, to walk and visit the places we both went in that area and had such happy times?
pits paid for now and I don’t want to let my friend down either but neither do I want to be crying all the time thinking of what we had and what I’ve lost. Has anyone had the same experience please?
