My husband passed away on Thursday from throat cancer. I’m 36 years old and we have a 17 month old baby. Im left with our business to run which scares the hell out of me. I can’t take any time off as I have to support myself and my baby. We both have big families so I’m lucky I have a big support network. I’ve stopped eating. I’ve tried to eat but I physically cannot stomach anything to eat and I know I have to be strong for my baby. I’ve never lost anyone before and this is the first time I’ve experienced grief. I’m totally heartbroken. There’s so much to sort out. I’m devastated that we can only have 30 people attend his funeral. I just feel sick all the time and so so sad. I miss him so much.
Thank you NellieJ. Not been on for a few days as I’ve been so busy. It’s Sunday and it’s quiet at home so thought I’d come on here. I’m actually now having to self isolate for 14 days so finding it 
fficult today. It’s so hard to be on your own when you have lost a loved one
