lost my husband 2 days ago and I have so much guilt. I cared for him at home and he had a traumatic last few days, very agitated I had to call district nurses out few time to top up his medication. I shouted at him few times out of frustration for pulling out his medication pump and he kept trying to pull his cafeta out. Before that he kept trying to stand up to wee and kept wetting on the floor. I cannot get these moments out of my head and feel incredibly guilty.