Dreading New Year

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Christmas was ok and we celebrated in my beautiful mum's honour and had lots of FUN. Just like she told us to and would have wanted. Of course we missed her more than words can say and we really kept her memory alive. 

Now the festives have ended and I'm back home. I literally am dreading the New Year. It's my Mums Birthday on New Years Eve too. I plan to just be in my pjs and chill with my dad and hubby. I really don't want the New Year to come. I don't want a year to start that my beautiful mum won't have lived in. I know it will come and I know I will find inner strength. If this year has taught me anything it's I'm stronger than I ever knew, I cope better than I ever knew. This is the hardest thing I have ever faced. It's werid but I know I can do this because my mum raised me and gave me all these skills. I just wish she was with me. I miss her so much, it still hurts like it was yesterday.   Xxx

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    Hi all - arm bands much appreciated SPu. Will be thinking of you tomorrow - the firsts are always difficult. It was my birthday in March, just had a quiet day with dad, sister and niece. I think going out for a walk is a good idea. My sister took me out for a ride in the car to the beach, always calming to see the sea,

    Love to you all xx

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    Hey guys,

    Thank you had SPu, We had a lovely relaxing break Xx Stanley certainly is. Xx Back home tonight. His at my dads, I feel lost without him. Xx 

    Awww, sending you birthday wishes and warm hugs, for tmrw. Xx A walk sounds perfect.xxx  

    Had a fantastic week. Sometimes, I think, you don't realise, you need something, until you do it. Xx I soooooo needed this, time out. XXX 

    Was lovely, we could spend time with my Dad and Stanley. 

    I thought  of my beautiful mum lots and I was tinged with sadness, as she want me to go with her. Xx Sadly that couldn't be. I felt comfort in she loved it there. And would have loved that we laughed, chilled and enjoyed each others company She would love her crew, looking after each other and having FUN.

    My dad spoke of my mum lots and lots. We shared lots of memories and laughed at things, she would say. I know for me, this is so important. For my dad too. Xx

    Feeling tired tonight. Xx so PJ's, dinner and Early night. Xxx

  • Some arm bands your way anniversary's are always hard especially your first. Hope you do find the birthday card as I know you would feel better to see it, it has meaning to you.

    One of my passions is traction engines they simply fascinate me, I was feeling very strangely emotional to see them, felt a total prat for having tears in my eyes.

    I feel it has an appropriate name 'Foremost' we keep our loved ones in the 'foremost' of our minds, but they also know however we remember them love lasts forever.

    hope you and Stanley had a good walk, I hope the weather is kind.

    Big hugs to everyone

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    Birthday wishes for today SPu - I know it’s going to be difficult but, like me and the others on here, you will get through it. Your mum and our mum’s are always with us xx

  • I feel a bit sad this morning, last night  we had the coast guard helicopter out as I am staying near the Great orme, I am saddened to hear a 13 year old lost his life last night after getting in difficulties in the sea. Put a bit of a damper but still determined to enjoy my weekend away.

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    Happy Birthday for today SPu hope you manage to get through it in the best way you can.

    Good to hear you had a good break Sunshine and Stanley enjoyed. 

    What part of Wales did you stay in GBear? Hope you had a good time.

    Been thinking of you all.

    X x x

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    Just seen this after I posted, how awful to hear of that. So young tragic.

    I hope you enjoy the rest of your break North Wales is beautiful but not as beautiful as here in the South Wink

    Take Care, wrap up warm it certainly gone colder here. Sending you a hug back x x x

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    Aw thanks guys for the birthday wishes. Felt sad yday but just a bit “nothing” today so far if that makes any sense. Got some lovely presents and cards from friends so that was a bit of a boost.

    Sorry to hear that @GBear. All just reminds us how fragile life is and how much we need to cling to and make the best of it - so easy to lose sight of in the rigours of daily life.

    Hope everyone is doing ok.

    Peace, love and hugs xxx

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    That makes sense SPU - I felt a bit nothing on my birthday too, just felt a massive piece of the family jigsaw was missing. I’m sorry to hear that too GBear as you said SPu, it just makes you realise how fragile life is and how we should try to make the most out of life.

    Thinking of you all xx