Christmas was ok and we celebrated in my beautiful mum's honour and had lots of FUN. Just like she told us to and would have wanted. Of course we missed her more than words can say and we really kept her memory alive.
Now the festives have ended and I'm back home. I literally am dreading the New Year. It's my Mums Birthday on New Years Eve too. I plan to just be in my pjs and chill with my dad and hubby. I really don't want the New Year to come. I don't want a year to start that my beautiful mum won't have lived in. I know it will come and I know I will find inner strength. If this year has taught me anything it's I'm stronger than I ever knew, I cope better than I ever knew. This is the hardest thing I have ever faced. It's werid but I know I can do this because my mum raised me and gave me all these skills. I just wish she was with me. I miss her so much, it still hurts like it was yesterday. Xxx
And Sunny 
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Been thinking of you Sunshine and all of you ladies. Crying is a good thing - it was what you felt and what needed to come out. I have a really great quote someone gave me - will send it next week.
The day is almost over & we will have come through - remembering our wonderful mums, with great strength. Well done Mac Team.
Xxxxxx
Furst run this morning - and so, the journey starts.....
Have been thinking of all the Mac Team today. Days like these are just another painful reminder of our huge loss, the word huge actually doesn’t even come close to describing our loss. As you said Kate, Mother’s Day is almost over and we will have all managed to get through it, remembering all our lovely/wonderful mum’s.
Lovely picture Kate - looks beautiful/peaceful. We will all be virtual with you on your running 
journey.
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Great work Sunshine! I find building yourself up to do something is the hardest sometimes - once you’re there, you’re doing it!!! So really well done - you should be proud. Speaking on behalf of Team Mac, we are.
On the running front. Just done my second run - in hail (thanks mum) 
only managing about 20 minutes right now but will build it up slowly - after all, it’s a process. Got the Nike app. Stopped to take a picture of the moody sky and then went round and round the blocks. Not great with maps, so asked dad to plot out some running routes.
Been thinking of you all. Mid week tomorrow. Hope you’re all ok. Here if you want to brain dump xxxxx
