Dreading New Year

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Christmas was ok and we celebrated in my beautiful mum's honour and had lots of FUN. Just like she told us to and would have wanted. Of course we missed her more than words can say and we really kept her memory alive. 

Now the festives have ended and I'm back home. I literally am dreading the New Year. It's my Mums Birthday on New Years Eve too. I plan to just be in my pjs and chill with my dad and hubby. I really don't want the New Year to come. I don't want a year to start that my beautiful mum won't have lived in. I know it will come and I know I will find inner strength. If this year has taught me anything it's I'm stronger than I ever knew, I cope better than I ever knew. This is the hardest thing I have ever faced. It's werid but I know I can do this because my mum raised me and gave me all these skills. I just wish she was with me. I miss her so much, it still hurts like it was yesterday.   Xxx

  • Someone else looks pretty chilled out too , even if its a situation of not liking his picture taken.

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    FormerMember in reply to GBear

    I'm glad to hear the wellbeing event went well for you GBear, it's good art helps you to relax. The pictures you have shared with us are lovely especially the owl. I do like to look at landscape paintings and of course animals, unfortunately I can't draw a stickman. 

    The weather hasn't been too bad here and even managed a quiet coastal walk was nice to be out and blow the cobwebs away in the fresh air.

    Take care all x x x

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    FormerMember in reply to GBear

    He's a funny little thing enjoys my partner's company more than mine, I mean how dare he Joy . All my cats have always loved me more apart from this one. X x

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    FormerMember in reply to FormerMember

    Hey Kate, 

    Stanley is as crazy and loving as ever. He loves the wind. You get blown side ways, walking him. And are the only ones at the lake. Everyone else was cosy indoors. JoyRofl certainly blew the cobwebs away. He love it. #crazycockapoo. 

    It was good to get away. I needed the break from work. I don't know about you guys, I'm ok for so long then hit a wall. I have a role were i deal directly with the public. So i have to paint a smile on, what ever im feelinh inside. Sometimes its hard. When your really crumbling inside. I could really feel it last week. So was good to have the space to just be me and if that was laughing or crying it was fine. 

    I did plently of both. Hope you have a nice time with your family. I think it completely natural how your feeling. People and places will be memories flooding back. Xxx sending you a hug. 

    I can totally relate to the above. I feel the same about my mum. Each time I walk into my mum and dad's house. I have to brace my self. I just can imagine the greeting "Hello Darling" xx oh what I wouldn't do to hear those two words again. Xxx 

    I went to  my mum's family home town. And it brought many memories flooding back. I just expected her to pop up. Xx I really miss her. As i explain before a relative in my immediate family is serious ill. (Not cancer, another chronic condition.)  I just wish she was here just to be Mum and do what mum's do. Xx Everyone is pulling together, like she would want and supporting each other. But no one has the love of a mothers love. Xxx I just could do with a "hello, darling" right now. Sorry for the ramble. Xx

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    FormerMember in reply to FormerMember

    Aww what his name? His very handsome. Xx 

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    FormerMember in reply to FormerMember

    Yeay another furry baby has joined our little clan! Thanks !

    I really miss mine - thank you for sharing all of yours xxx

    Cat2Dog2

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    FormerMember in reply to FormerMember

    As Kate said, lovely to hear from you SPu. I was hoping you were ok, was just going to give a little shout-out on here, asking if anyone had heard from you...anyway, really pleased that we have heard from you. Thank you for the virtual rubber rings and arm bands, will need them again next weekend, as it’s my birthday. I feel I have been in amongst the big waves last week, feeling so sad and low, I know you will all relate to this. Just the smallest of things set me off, had to get something from mum’s make up bag for my sister, well, the tears just flowed, mum still liked to put a little bit of make up on and her Chanel perfume.

    Hope you manage to get through the week ok SPu, glad your back, you were missed xx

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    FormerMember in reply to FormerMember

    Lovely cat-snap Lou. He sounds a lot like me - doesn’t like having his picture taken xx

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember in reply to GBear

    GBear - glad the event went ok. I hope you manage to join that art class. Anything that helps and relaxes is good. The weather doesn’t look that good for here next week either,  Xx

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    Sunshine - my niece liked her pancakes too, her dad made them again on Wednesday, but, my niece had already eaten pasta, not a wise move - pasta and pancakes, needless to say, my niece Sophie felt unwell, Everyone on here, knows exactly how we are feeling, I could just write having a bad day/week, and you would all know what I meant. Hope your week goes ok xx