Dreading New Year

Aww lovely picture Gbear. X

Lou - your right, life is not fair at all. I often think, where are you mum, I say god bless and love you mum every night. Mum had good and bad days, mum sometimes even said, she didn’t feel like she had cancer. Mum was bed bound for the last year of her life, but thankfully was not in terrible pain. Mum never complained, just like her mother. Hope your weekend goes ok Lou xx

Sunshine - I love this little group too. We all understand and if we are having a bad day, we can pop on here and write our emotions down. Hope you have a better day today Sunshine xx

GBear - lovely charcoal sketch of your friends dog xx

Couldn't agree more. Xxx Yes I'm brighter. Very tired but got some time off this week. To Rest and relax. Xxx

K8EH - pleased to read that you had a nice time with your dad. You and your dad have done a great job on the tiles - no wonkytiles.com in your kitchen.  The garden looks lovely with the fairy lights, it will be nice to sit out, especially during the summer. Very kind, regarding the invite to us, to your house one day - I’m in the North East, quite a few hours from London. My drink request please would be a glass of orange juice or a shandy, a shandy is the nearest to alcohol that I get. 

My sister got counselling through her work. Later on in the year, my sister can get counselling again if she wants. Hope it is of some help to your sister. As I have said a lot, I find visiting this site helps and has helped me. Just writing your thoughts down can help a little. I sometimes get comfort by just sitting in the living room and looking out to the garden, especially mum’s favourite tree which is directly in front of the window.

Your right Kate - we will keep ploughing through the waves and we have each other’s back. You sum it up perfectly.

Hope your weekend is going ok and hope Dexter is ok too xx

Hey all

sorry to hear about your relative, I hope things work out ok (sorry difficult to know what to say don’t mean to sound trite). Sorry to hear you had a tough time on Friday, I hope you are feeling a little stronger after some rest. Like says I wish there was something we could say or do, some magic potion to take all our pain and grief away. 

I love the idea of throwing a yellow rubber ring out. Sometimes I feel like the waves are crashing over and so far I’ve been lucky that someone sends a message, posts a funny photo and that’s been my rubber ring. Great work on the tiling and the outside space - I’m already there virtually with the sun out and a glass of vino or a cocktail (or two!) in hand

GBear Loving the dog picture, fab expression on his face.

completely know what you mean. It’s only been just over four months for me - sometimes I feel like it was only weeks and other times I feel like I’ve felt this sad forever.

Can’t believe I was walking the coast in the sunshine last week - where did spring go??

Big hugs, peace and love to you all (and all the pets). Much strength for the week ahead.

Xxx

You’re always welcome Sunny43 - you all are. I always have orange juice and I can arrange sherry too, no problem. 

Hope your weekend hasn’t been too bad. Is storm Freya with you yet in the North East? I’ve just come back from a quick trip to Bromley (M&S visit) and things were flying around everywhere. Two ladies screamed when some cardboard came towards us (thought it was a little over the top) 

Saw a friend earlier for a roast in a new pub near me and felt like all I did was talk about mum. I sometimes real things off - factually and matter of fact but the last two times I’ve done that, I’ve started to cry. Do hope friends don’t get fed up of me talking about it. 

Dexter all ok thank you. I’ve got to travel again for work tomorrow - until Wednesday. I do get to meet the new top dog at my new company tomorrow (got to secretly avoid an awkward dinner with the boss) to meet the new team at my new company!! Eeek. 

Thinking of you this week - and you all xxx

Spu - you’re also welcome any time. Cocktails and vino will be on standby. 

Anytime you need a rubber ring, life jacket or some arm bands - we’re all here. 

Hope your weekend hasn’t been too bad. Is storm Freya with you yet? 

Xx

Hi all, hope all your weekends have been ok.

Yes storm Freya is here too in Wales what a change in the weather. 

Kate I think if they are real friends they will happily listen to you talk about your mother.  I might have mentioned I've realised who my real friends lately, in fact I was thinking earlier on I haven't heard off one since December. I just feel I'm done with trying to please people who can't be bothered. 

Good luck with meeting your new boss, I hope it all goes well.

I finally had a letter from Cruse about an information day in a fortnight so wondering how that will go. Obviously I know it won't change things but may help a little I'm hoping.

Like you all I know I am missing my mother like crazy, I know I need to keep going for her. Been reading a lot about the afterlife don't know if I should be but just clinging on to everything at the moment. 

X x x x